okay so the group of friends that i thought were my friends decided to share a rumour that i told rachel about nicholas cheating on rachel and well i didn't and now nicholas hates me and i wouldn't be surprise if everyone hates me too i really hate going to school. i have lost my best friend nicholas, but then you no what if they don't want to believe that is there lost not mine. Because one i didn't say shit at all.
these past weeks have been so terrible. I still like my ex very much, you are probably thinking Jess why. I will tell you why, it is because i very much care and will never stop. i am trying to not lose hope yea i know how stupid is it that i want to back to a guy that hurt me and made me feel like shit. But guess what i don't care, because he is the only person that makes me feel like myself and he is only person that makes me very happy. And taught me that no matter what happens someone will never stop caring, to be positive and not to take everything to heart. he is the best. i just don't want to live anymore. I hate school so much more than you can imagine.
i wish life was so easy, no fuss, no drama nothing. But guess what life is not like that. it is the worst ever and i hate it so much. i want to die and i hate it
