okay so i am in year 12 and i am so stressed and omg the work that i have to do is crazy. but this year has been a crazy rollar coaster with just friends and home and everything else. i have been going nuts and everyday i wish that i could just dispear. my life at the moment is a mess and everyone in it has been distanced and i hate the fact that the friends i made last year in year 11 has changed and that everything has changed, i just wish that things that i did in my life this year that, i could change because i am so not happy.
where can i start i have friends that like to bullshit and make me a joke just because of the mistakes that i made in my life. dont you ever just get a feeling that you wish you could just go back to the past and changed because i wish that i could change the best thing that happened to me. but then it all sinks in that i cant change it and that the best thing in my life has now gone. I just want everything to be back to normal again, they say once you make a mistake you cant go back and fix it. well i made a mistake and i cant go bk and fix it.
why is it when you want something to be good it wont happened or when you have such a shit time you cant go back to fix it. once the damage is made it is made, you cant go back and fix it.
well i just want to say that i am greatful for everything, it might not be good. i always think of good things that have happened.
Thank you to everyone that has been there for me and made it the best year ever. :)
