If i were born different. //Salvis//

(14) committed 

Sal was suprised to have gotten a letter from travis. He knew the boy was kinda well written, and from what he assumed he either was pretending to be savyon arlo or..

Travis was in the empty church. What was he to do now. He just felt lost in some way, but yet free. Now he was able to fully let go and say goodbye to his dad.
Travis stood up. Dusting off his palms from sitting against the vacant church to see some shadow from out the corner of his eyes. The red glowing eyes were like daggers. He ran out of there quickly. He tried to get out fast enough. Because he was terrified of everything he'd known his father to create. He new his fathers hit list, his fathers cult whoom was roamimg without a leader. He was scared one day they would come to recruit him and make him take his fathers place. He ran and ran til his frail body couldnt run anymore. It felt like he was back living with his father. His seventeen year old self trembling as he ran from his father. But no matter how much he'd run, he knew it would only make things worse for him. Sometimes he was hurt so badly he just couldnt run. Travis knew now he was safe from his father. Or atleast so he thinks.

-back to sal-

Sal stared down at the letter. His words were so sweetly written. He never knew this troubled boy had felt like this. But what was he gonna do? he simply couldnt tell travis yes because where even was he. The bluenette slipped off his prosthetic. A tear slipping down onto his cheek. He never thought anyone could want him. If travis found out about his face, his missing eye. All of his past, travis would take his words right back sal was sure of it. Sap hated himself, from his face to his body, his skin, his eye, his arms, legs, ears, feet, hair. All of it. But what sal hated most out of all himself was his mind, his brain. He hated the way he always overthunk things. He hated how every second of every minute he was always thinking, his nightmares were made from his mind. He pondered about the day everything was ruined. His mind was the worst thing.

After about an hour of sal getting lost in hos terrible mind. He stood up, tying his hair back into a bun. He wiped his face and decided to shower. He needed a break from everything. And these burning hot showers had caused a break through from himself. Maybe he should start writting music again, get his mind away from the terrible truths he had to suffer. While he slipped off his clothes and into the shower, he saw something. Everything grew white and there he was. In some place no longer a shower. There stood his mother, and the dog guy.

It took a bit for travis to remeber the letter he'd sent sal. He could guess what the answer would be anyways. Just a hard ass no, Travis went back to his fathers house for the night. He crashed there and the next day both boys were out and about. Sal was heading to go get coffee. And so was travis, oddly enough they both see eachother. Sal quickly looks away, he gets his coffee and sits down looking at his phone making sure not to make any eye contact with the boy who completely left him stranded. Travis had walked over and sat down

"sal.." His voice was calm, full of sorrow though. Sal could tell he was gonna apologize. So he gave travis his full attention.

"im sorry for walking out. Im sorry for leaving knockfell, for leaving you to deal with what i'd done. I'm sorry for hurting you and making your life so much worse. I have never been stable, ive never known what it is like to be loved. Not by my mother or father. Not by friends, family. But yet you come along and its so different.." He said as his hand slides to slowly hold sals. Sal allows him to but he was finding it hard to belive travis anymore.

"You cared, id hit you and still you cared. I didnt understand. I tried to hurt you so you would hate me to keep you away because when i was even looking at you i couldnt contain my thoughts. How so badly i wanted you. I wanted to hold you , wakeup next to you, kiss you. The guilt ate me up. It killed me seeing you around ash or anyone else because i wanted you to be mine. I knew at the time it was wrong and the only way to get you away was to make you hate me. Which hurt me more because when you looked at me, with fear and anger everyday. It seemed like you looked at me as if i was my father. And i was becoming him, but to you. I didnt belive you deserved me anymore so right after graduation and i got an offer by my dad i took it and left. And it was a good and bad decision. But i wanna try.. i really wanna try with you and if not then i can leave again. But i just wanna attempt to make it work."

Sal was stunned, why the fuck was he so easy with words? all he thought travis was gonna say was sorry man date me. But no sal was fucking crying. Like what the actual fuck.

Sal chewed on his lip "i like what we have.. Ill be your boyfriend but i wanna go slow." Sal said softly as he squeezed travs hand. "and i want you to know travis, your safe here and no one is going to judge you."

Now the two have finally comitted but there was so much to come that will ruin everything. So much is to come. (maybe even sal LMAO)