HIS BREATH; NETEYAM SULLY

7. Quietly

"No matter how bad your heart is broken

the world doesn't stop for your grief."

- Lula You

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My heart is beating faster than ever as I storm home, I don't want to be asked questions or ask them, I knew what Tsireya was implying and I knew I was eventually return to them. There was no avoiding it. I hear mumbling from the room then footsteps heading towards my room.

No don't come in, I don't want to be perceived as weak or pathetic to you.

I just want to be accepted for who I am.

Please.

Despair suffocates me and my mind as the footsteps stop and a faint knock can be heard from the door, the door was wide open so why were they even trying?

"Please leave me alone, close the door on your way out." I whisper, my voice croaky and harsh. I lay down on my bed grabbing my pillow and hugging it tightly. I don't hear any footsteps walking over so I try again.

"I said-"

"Yeah I know what you said I'm choosing to ignore it, Ao' nung told me what happened." His voice echoes from the doorway of my room. I claw my pillow tighter and shove it to the side.

"What you wanna come kiss me and then ignore me again?" I respond with my most rudest tone possible but it all just sounds croaky from my swollen throat. Neteyam freezes for a few seconds but continues to walk up to my bed, he sits down on the side and stares at me. Self consciously I cover my face with my pillow but he lowers the pillow down.

"The reason I ignored you was because I didn't think you liked me at all, in that specific I felt like no one really loved me for who I really was." He explains, stroking my hair gently.

"I was both scared my father and even you wouldn't like me after what I did, and I should've thought about how to take responsibility for my actions which I didn't do and i'm so sorry" He whispers, placing his forehead onto mine. I smile and take a deep breath.

"I like being safe, loved and free. If I go back to the sky people all of the 3 things I love will be taken away, what shall I do if they destroy me as a person?" I cry, weeping into Neteyam's hands. He just shushes me and places his fingers on my eyelids, forcing them closed. I grab his hand and hold it tightly. 

"Please don't let them take me away." I hear my own voice say before i'm enveloped in darkness.

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The sound of rustling awakens me from my sleep, I rub my swollen eyes to see Reya making her bed on the other side of the room. I frown and quickly pretend If i were sleeping. I don't think she notices me as she scurries out of our room, I slowly yawn and stretch my limbs as I wake up. All the memories from yesterday flood back into my brain like waves, they keep coming until I'm drowned in them. I cringe and jump out of bed. I splash myself with some cold water and leave my room as quietly as I can. I haven't seen my parents since their meeting and I'm scared father will say something about me that'll damage my mental health more. I spot my mother sitting on a shell in the lounge room, she seems to be writing something important as she only seems to be focusing on that. She doesn't see me leave the house.

I close the door shut quietly and make my way to the markets, my problems were big but nothing retail shopping can't fix for the meanwhile. Retail shopping I mean weapon shopping, but still shopping. I head out of one store to another trying to find my perfect bow & arrow and a dagger. I spot a beautiful dagger on the highest shelf of the store. I tip toe but It doesn't seem to be enough height, suddenly I feel someone's chest against my back. I turn to see Neteyam reaching for my dagger, I cover my face and rush to the shop owner. Neteyam grabs my coat and stops me from running away. I silently cruse and look up, Neteyam is looking at me with such strange eyes. I smile and take my hood off.

"Good morning, Neteyam" I say.

"It is a good morning, Kallo" He responds, I recoil at the awkwardness. I place my palm out and nod my head towards the dagger.

"Give it, you know I was trying to reach for it" I declare with confidence, I don't know where I find it because I am so not mentally stable right now. He shrugs and walks over to the store owner, he starts to pay for the dagger and a few more weapons. I sigh and walk out of the store, so much for retail therapy.

"Hey, why's you just leave me all alon-"

"Oh hey, Kallo, nice to see yo-"

Oh, Zados. I blink and stare at him, he looked so much better out at daylight then he did at night in that gloomy store. He just smiles at me brightly I can feel my eyes straining. Somehow he makes me feel safe with that charming smile of his. 

"Who are you?" I hear Neteyam say from behind me. I roll my eyes and Zados stares at him. He stares at him with "is that him" eyes. I nod and walk over to Zados.

"someone you don't need to know" Zados flings his arms around my shoulders and holds my bags for me. I see Neteyam flinch and shrink form his actions. I look away as I walk off with Zados. I feel bad but I had no such time for him because I need time to figure out myself first.

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A/N: okay kinda short chapter but it was fun to write. I haven't posted in a quick while. I know wattpad readers don't give a living shit about me but I have a bunch of important exams coming up so I'll be posting like once a week, if I don't post once a week I'll it make it up by 2 chapters and a bonus the next week. Thanks for reading don't forget to vote and share.

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