When Can I See You Again?

Chapter 10

Jinheung's POV

Love is but a wicked game. A game that I shall never play again. I would keep the promise I made to my Haewon, but I knew I would never love again. And I had made Cai Xufeng swear to me that he would keep my Haewon happy. 

Now, as I stood at one of the palace lakes and looked at the moonlight dancing on the water, I no longer felt sad. Or in pain. I felt empty, as if there was nothing but a void inside of me. And somehow that was even worse. I murmured, "At least, I will have memories of what could have been.... I hope you find happiness, my love."

Life felt like it did not matter anymore. How can I look at the night sky and not think of how her eyes contained starry universes in them? How can I love the moon anymore? She won't be with me to see it. How can I love this world? It took mine away. But what pains me the most.... is that I already miss her. I miss my Haewon. 

I once saw an ocean of stars in someone's eyes. I was captivated by that. After she left, in pursuit of her shadow, I never dare miss any starry night sky. Yet, I never saw the same bright stars again. I looked up at the moon she loved and murmured, "The one who disappeared after swallowing up my nights and dreams.... My moon.... Goodbye."

Haewon's POV

It would take a few days to get to China. As if I cared. Not even a day has passed, but it still hurts. The one who promised that he'd always be with me was no longer here. Every time I want to share something with him, a moment, a secret, I'm once again forced to realize that he is not with me anymore. 

And my heart keeps breaking, over and over again. I can't do this anymore. Not without him here. I would help Xufeng keep his promise, but I would never love again. 

In my life, many years were spent alone in the darkness. My life and soul were still like dead water. Until one person said that he saw a starry sky in my eyes. Maybe he doesn't know that in my eyes, there's only darkness and that he was all the shining things in my world.

I looked up at the moon and said, "My love. I'll keep you in my heart and become the moon that never fails to watch you from afar. Goodbye."