People who beg for your money are doing things you can't even imagine. See: corporations, taxes, universities. (Corporations are legally seen as people and money is their language!)
This bitterness is from a horrid man who took money from me because I let him. I was weak, he preyed on my emotions and the worst thing is that I pitied him. Pity and humility are virtues for cowards, I shall not elaborate. I will elucidate it, though.
I thought I was helping and also wanted to lord over the fact that I was doing the Right Thing. Fucking bastard played for me a sucker, I lost the game. Pity played a role because I wanted to to be the benefactor, fucking rat fucking bastard. I am down a lot of money as everyone is and it is rather miserable.
