What Am I? | Victoria De Angelis

chapter 9: death of me

Tonight was their first show of the 'Loud kids' tour and we were all very excited, especially the band.
We were at the venue and the band was rehersing. Honestly, it was mostly them joking around but no one really cares.
After the rehersals they all went to the dressing room to start getting ready.
They were all choosing what to wear and I was on the couch answering some e-mails.
Suddenly, someone was in front of me. I looked up and saw Victoria, she looked so damn amazing. She was wearing black leather pants and she had peices of tape covering her nipples.
"What do you think, Angie?"
"Very cute, I like it but won't you get cold?"
"Oh, don't worry about that. It never gets cold on stage when you are jumping around," she smirked and sat down next to me
"What are you doing?"
"As you can see, I am a very busy woman. I am answering e-mails and later I've got to book hotel rooms."
"Ooh, I wonder what our next hotel rooms will look like."
I smiled and continued answering to the e-mails.
"Hey, what are you two doing?" Asked Damiano as he sat down next to us.
"She's being a good personal assistant, she's answering e-mails."
"Oh okay, and what are you doing Vic?"
"Watching her answer them."
"Weirdo."

"Victoria, Damiano! Get over here! I need to do your guys' makeup!" Shanty was yelling from the other side of the room.

"Whoops, we better go before Shanty murders us." Damiano and Vic quickly got up and practicaly ran towards the chairs in which they'll get their makeup done.

"Ciao." It was Ethan.
He sat down next to me and put a hand around my shoulder.
"Hi," I replied, happy that I'm not alone.
I mostly talked with Victoria and Damiano. Sometimes with Thomas but rarely with Ethan. I didn't know why. I guess our paths never crossed. But he seemed like an interesting person.

He suddenly leaned closer to my ear.
"What's happening between you and Vic? Are you two together?"
That caught me off guard.
"W-What? No, we aren't together."
"You've got to be lying. You can't tell me you two aren't together but then sleep in the same bed, cuddled up."
"Listen Ethan, it's complicated."
He sighed and pulled away from my ear.
"If you say so, but please don't hurt her," he whispered the last part and walked away.

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I was backstage, waiting for them when they finish their show so I could give them their towels.

First came Damiano, grabbed the towel and thanked me. Then Thomas and Ethan and finally Vic. Not only did she grab the towel but she also grabbed my hand.

"Where are we going?"
"Uhm, somewhere, just follow me." I didn't have a choice so I just followed her to a dark room.
"What?"
"Get in, please. We need to talk."
Oh, fuck. Did I do something wrong?

She got in, closing and locking the door.
"Why are we in a dark room?"
"First of all it's a bathroom, second of all I don't want to turn on the lights."
"Will you now tell me why we are here?"
"I need to ask you something. Do you like me?"
"Hah, of course I do Vic. What kind of question is that?"
"No, no. I don't mean like a friend. I meant more like... someone you could date. Like, a girlfriend," she whispered.

"Um, yes?"

"Are you sure or are you not sure?"
"Listen, I don't know! All of this is so new to me. I mean we saw each other naked and even almost had sex. And you also kissed me. I don't know how to feel. I've been straight my whole life and now getting with a girl isn't something I'm used to."

"Oh, okay. By the way, what did Ethan tell you?"

"What do you mean?"

"You and Ethan were talking. What did you two talk about."

"Ohh, about that. He asked me if we're a thing."
"What did you say?"

"I said that it's complicated."

"Good girl." She leaned in closer to me and kissed my cheek. I felt like I had a million butterflies in my stomach.
"Did he ask you anything else?"

"No, but he told me not to hurt you."
She leaned in even closer, shifting her mouth to my ear.

"Will you?"
"N-No. I would never."

"Thank you." I could hear her smile.

Then she hugged me.
"I miss you."

"I'm right here," I replied, confused.

"No, not in that way. I wish you and I could get an apartment together. I wish we could spend the rest of our lives together. I- I wish you were my girlfriend. I want to always hug you."
I smiled and hugged her back, petting her hair.

"After tour, we should go on a date."

"Okay, where do you think we should go on a date?"

She snuggled her head into my neck. "I don't know. Maybe somewhere private. Maybe my apartment. Maybe in a restaurant. After all I have all the money that I could've wished for. I could pay the owner to have the restaurant only for us one night."

"I think that would be a bit too much, Vic."

"I would spend all of my money on you, Angie."

I shivered.
"Are you cold?" She asked as she rubbed my forearm.

"A bit, are you?"

"Yeah, we should probably go back."

I agreed. "You should also get dressed, you're half naked and outside is very cold. It's winter, after all."

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I was with Vic in her hotel room helping her pack her suitcase. We were on the floor, next to the bed, trying to fit all of her shirts in the suitcase.

"This is harder than I thought," Vic said as she continued shoving shirts in her suitcase.

"Why did you buy this much, anyway?"

"Angie, you know me. I just love fashion too much and I just can't resist a shirt. Plus! It was on sale! 50 % off. Seemed like an amazing deal to me."

"We did it," Vic said as she leaned her back against the bed. Me and her high fived each other.

"You are truly the best personal assistant I could've ever asked for."