Reflection

Pain Killer

Have you ever been addicted something? or someone? I have and I am not only addicted I am more like obsessed and it's like i'm addicted to drugs. I was first addicted to Cocaine (her body language), then i was addicted to Weed (her smile), after that I was addicted to heroine (the way she talks), later on I was addicted to meth (her scent), lastly I was addicted to the worst kind of drug I was addicted to Opium (her soul). At one point my dealer stopped dealing and I had no other source of getting my drugs. Once you're addicted to something it's very hard to go back. Day after day my body is dying...day after day my cravings for those drugs were getting worse and worse. I was shutting down, I need those drugs to survive. I need it all in my life, without the drugs I am lost. I am now in need of rehab. I have been to several rehab facilities but none of them are helping me. I need a solution, if I do not find one I will loose my mind. Technically I have already lost it since I killed all of my brain cells. I started by distracting myself, which kind of helped to distract myself from the thought of the drugs. Then I decided to convince myself and my body that I do not need them, the brain is very powerful. Once I have convinced my brain that I am in no need of it, I started regaining my health back slowly. Day after day things kept getting better. There were days where I wanted to relapse and I broke down, but I stayed strong. It always gets better somehow.