Own my mind

Feelings

Milena's view:

It was about 9 a.m. when I was laying in my bed and just woke up. I was bored and started refreshing some memories. I thought about the night when I met Damiano and the others. After the evening we all exchanged our numbers and kept in touch, now me and Delisa live in the same house with them. I sadly don't remember much because I've already been pretty tipsy when Damia asked me for a dance, I remember that I didn't told him my real name, but don't remember what name that was. I never asked, I don't think that's something important and he probably forgot that too. I also remember singing and dancing a lot. Since that day already 6 years have passed

6 years, flew like crazy 

In that time I didn't really had a relationship, I'm glad I didn't. After my toxic ex I decided love is nothing for me, I'd never  fall in love again. Also seeing my friends suffering after break ups was a reason more for me to stay away from all this drama. 

But I couldn't get Damiano out of my head since day one. No, I'm not in love with him, but he's someone special to me, I can trust him all 101%, he can always cheer me up and make me laugh, we just have a close friendship, nothing more. 

But in this time Damiano has brought 2 girls home: Lea and Katrin. Lea was a really nice girl and I liked her. But she didn't stayed long, Damiano has broken up with her because she wasn't the one. Sadly Katrin is still here, she is the complete opposite of Lea: mean, pick me and she always only thinks about her own butt. She's also very annoying, I don't know why Damiano is still with her, I mean, what is so spacial about her? Her personality is awful and she's a walking red flag. Katrin is really pain in our assholes, non of us like her and she's only staying here because of Damiano. He deserves someone better, someone who treats him better.

Third person view:

If Milena is honest, every time she sees him with another girl (except Victoria and Delisa) there's always this one weird feeling in her stomach. Jealousy. She knows that feeling very well and it scares her. "I'd never forgive myself if I fall in love with Damiano" her mind says, but secretly she  knows that her heart wants to jump off the cliff hoping that he will cough her at some point, she just doesn't want to admit it. She probably never will. I'm not in love with him she says to herself all the time. About the one-night-stands they had twice they never spoke, probably because both times each of them were drunk

When she was all lost in her thoughts she heard her door opening

Back to Milenas view:

"Good morning, breakfast is ready" Thomas said 

"Coming" I yawed 

I stayed in my sleeping shirt and only put on some shorts as I'm going to shower right after the breakfast. As I came downstairs I automatically rolled my eyes at Katrin who was again all over Damiano, who just wanted to eat his breakfast. 

Poor boy I thought to myself and couldn't help it but started to laugh a bit

(a/n: TW:ed)

After some good mornings we all sat down and began to eat. I just stared at the pancakes, thinking how many calories there are disgusted me. I ate both and immediately regretted it. I excused myself and went upstairs, threw everything I've just eaten out and went showering. After I started to work on some new sketches for the next outfits as I'm Måneskins stylist. I don't know how long I've been working on it as Damiano came in my room

"Ciao bambina, are you okay?" he asked 

"Ciao principessa, yes why?" I answered

"You've been in your room all day, I also brought you some fruits" he said with a smile on his face 

"Aww, thank you that's really nice of you, I've worked on some sketches"

"Uuuuhhh show mee" he said like a little kid making me chuckle 

He sat down next to me and took the sketch with his outfit in his hands. 

"Wow Milena that's really good" he said after some time

"Grazie" I thanked 

"What if we add a joker and here a belt?" he asked

"I just thought of that!" I said and we both laughed

For the next two hours we worked on the sketch and made one more, I loved working together with them all, it is much more fun then doing it all on my own. We were laughing and doing some shit like he randomly started tickling me or I drew him a French beard, but that's normal between us. So we were laughing or ass of again because Damia tried to draw himself a eyeliner and dramatically failed as we heard someone  yelling 

"Damiano, I've been waiting for you for almost two hours!" Katrin said in her annoying high pitched voice 

"Waiting for what? Sorry I was working" Damiano answered still laughing 

"I wanted to watch a film with you. Is your work more important than me?" She said 

Yes, of course it is I thought 

"Sorry baby I forgot. See ya bambina" he said not laughing anymore 

"See ya, good night" I answered smiling 

When both left I rolled my eyes at Katrin behavior, she's acting like a little child that needs attention all the time. But I didn't wanted her to ruin my mood so I just went to bed thinking about the evening with Damiano.