have you ever been loved? (murdoc niccals x reader)

Love

You have also discovered that Murdoc's playing of the bass fits his entire being.
You don't mean this in a casual way, though.
Maybe it's just you, but there's a feeling inside of you that feels like a whole relationship is starting.
One you've been anticipating for a while.
You've been taking a break from making music, too.
You have a chance.
As soon as you have that thought, Murdoc calls you down to the basement. You didn't think too much of it, other than how this usually happened when he wanted to talk to you about songs.
However, he even stated that the band was taking a short break from music.
Either way, it would be some conversation.
You quickly go downstairs, slightly confused. Murdoc is sitting at a table, looking like he has a lot to say.
About what, though? You sit down, questions filling your head.
"I've had this question for a while, specifically for you," he begins in a slight sigh, not looking directly at you. "Do you know what it feels like to be..loved?"
This question strikes you immensely, catching you off guard.
"I mean, I've had a few childhood crushes," you simply reply.
"So, this could be a first," he murmurs, planting a short kiss across your lips. You freeze, not expecting the action at all. Either way, the experience felt great.
A grin appears on Murdoc.
"Well, I haven't been the most loved in the past. People just tend to stick with me for one specific reason and then leave when they get tired of me," he grumbles, kissing you once again. This time, you actually go for the kiss, your lips pretty much pressing together. Your pupils heavily dilate, your heart quickening. Murdoc proceeds to hold your face in his hands as you kiss once more, barely leaving time between the last one. This one was much more intense, movement included as you reached up to his shoulder.
You've never experienced so much shock and euphoria in one moment.
Until now.
Your heart seems to skip a few beats, too. You're still grateful to actually be having an intimate moment with the man that you were fancying for such a long time.
Time was in your favor, now. This might actually be the best night of your entire life.
Your lips finally part, leaving the two of you breathing heavily.
"You're much too irresistible, darling," Murdoc purrs huskily, grinning.
You, however, are speechless, but in the best way possible. All that you actually need right now is Murdoc. Just his presence was enough to make you happy.
He stands up, gesturing for you to do so also.
Of course, you do stand.
Murdoc proceeds to press you against the wall as soon as you get up, grasping both of your shoulders as he presses himself against you, your lips pressed back together. Both of you are full of pure adrenaline.
To you, this occurrence is quite comforting. You've never fully experienced this type of love, but you enjoy it immensely. His grip seems to tighten throughout the kiss, but you don't fully notice it. You don't want this moment to ever end. You've never had an experience quite like this. Murdoc's entire being seemed to envelop all of your senses. Your heart thumped quickly in your chest.
Murdoc only slightly pulls his lips away, "I hope that you can accept if I call you mine," he says in a low tone that causes you to shiver.
"I'd do anything to be yours," you respond in a small gasp.
"Good, dear, because I don't know what I would do without you."