13 BBY
Mustafar
Dear Padme,
I'm very sorry!
I'm sorry that I didn't save you, that I wasn't strong enough to save you. I was weak, I promised you something I couldn't keep.
I promised you life, happiness and a family, and all I got was death and destruction, a dark legacy filled with death, hate and most of all pain. I promised you life, light and peace, but I went against everything I promised you, I went against the grain and ended up losing you.
I lost you and ended up not being... I was never the best husband for you and I didn't have the opportunity to be a father.
I've made a lot of mistakes in my entire life, but losing you was my biggest mistake. You were and always will be my great love, the reason for my smile and my will to live.
When you left, a part of me broke and today I live trying to put the pieces of my heart together, but there is no more concert, there is no way to put the pieces together and make it beat like before, because there are no pieces to put together, the ones that had left with you.
Your memorial was the best thing I could have done to honor you, your memory and your life.
I wish I had more time, to celebrate life with you, to say I love you, to see you smile and apologize for moving away from you, for leaving you for so long that I didn't realize you was losing the will to live.
I should have realized, and stopped it, given you reasons to live. Showing the good side of life, and showing that you could still be happy, showing that it was worth it, that you, us, our family were worth it.
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
I miss you and I miss your smile, I miss hugging you and touching your hair, smelling your perfume and seeing you happy. I miss you so much, Padmé.
And I'm also sorry for calling you a traitor when you were never one, for treating you with hate when all you deserved was love, I'm sorry for not being what you needed in that moment, for not being fully considerate, is true. I'm very sorry.
I love you always and forever,
Your Anakin.
YOU ARE READING
book of memories - anidala
RomanceA memoir book of Anakin and Padmé's very special moments during their years together. Some memories follow canon and some don't. Hope you enjoy it <3 #anidalaweek2023 the portuguese version was also posted on my account. - a versão em português...
