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The moment I returned home, I immediately decided to start doing my modules. I have always been an achiever.
I do what I need to do with eagerness to pass and ace each project, activity, quizzes and exams gracefully. Ngayon, ginagawa ko nalang to for the sake of passing.
It feels like I just downgraded myself academically, huh? I don't know if it's a bad thing or not. But I do know that I have to collect and put my shit together.
Ang hirap maging masipag pag nasa bahay ka lang, gusto mo lang humilata buong araw talaga.
I started doing my GenBio since yun naman ang una kong isesend kay Jacky. It's about cells, animal cells and plant cells.
It has five activities all in all that I apparently have to finish before 10pm, it was all easy tho, identification and enumeration lang naman mostly atsaka defining cell's anatomy and physiology.
May isa pang compare and contrast, well, it was all easy since na s-search naman sa google halos lahat ng sagot. All I have to do is to paraphrase and check it again.
I made sure it was all tidy and clean, I even made some calligraphies to atleast make it seem like I have exert some efforts doing these.
Patapos na ako nang biglang tumunog ang phone ko, it was mama.
Sexy Mamiii:
Hi nak, I miss you. Kumusta?
I immediately composed my reply.
Trinity:
Hi mamaaa, I miss you more po. Ayos lang po ako, kayo po?
My mom is currently in Dubai, she have been working there for almost a decade na rin. I was still in grade 3 nung umalis sya, ate Dothy was still in grade 6 at 3 years old pa lang si Andrea nun.
It was really a big step to make, pero syempre, alam ko rin naman na ginagawa nya ang lahat to provide for us but it was really hard.
Nasanay akong may nanay sa tabi. At a very young age, ate Dothy was forced to fill the position and responsibility that mama left.
Aaminin ko, there was a phase kung saan nagtampo ako kay mama but as time goes by, I have totally understand it.
My dad, papa, he have been a great provider but he was never been a father. I don't even know if he knows how to be one.
He have anger issues, siguro nga sakanya ko rin namana ang pagiging mainitin ng ulo ko. And did I forget to mention how a manwhore he is?
Growing up, my eyes have seen the struggles that my mom have faced in their marriage. My mom was a saint, everytime na nag loloko si papa, she would always forgive him.
It was too late to realize that she was just forgiving him because she wanted to keep our family intact for us, her children.
I must say that all the trauma that I have gained was mostly from him, mapa pisikal man o emosyonal na trauma.
My mom was a gem, she was everything he could asked for but wala e, mas ginusto nyang magloko. It didn't happen once but a lot of times.
Cheating fuels some people's never-ending endeavours to maintain the false impression that their relationships or marriages are not dead. It will always be bad.
There is no excuse for it. There is no justification to have cheated on someone. If there is a way to justify it would not be called cheating.
Cheating in a relationship has the potential of not just breaking someone's trust, but also to scar them for the rest of their life. And this goes for both the cheater and the one who got cheated on.
Cheating is full on deceit and betrayal willingly and purposely to another person who we are close to. It is doing something you and your partner both know and agree on is not to ever happen and you go and do it.
I must say that, that was a worse experience I could go through as a child seeing how your parent's marriage fall apart and you can't do anything about it.
May mga panahon ding pag nalalasing sya ay nananakit sya, nag tatapon ng mga gamit kung saan saan and I don't really get why he's like that.
Hindi ko mawari kung bakit ganon ang asta nya sa tuwing nalalasing sya.
He wasn't really a good father and a husband.
Mama and Papa separated when I was in grade 6 and since then, hindi na sila nag usap ni papa. Kami nalang ni ate ang kino contact ni mama and it was really hard and I grieve with my mama.
I know how much she loved my father but the separation was a good choice to make, the best one actually. It was the best for all of us.
I have lived in a toxic environment for a long time. Luckily, my father changed his abusive ways but the pambababae remains. Nasa dugo na nya ata talaga ang pagiging ganon.
I was too drowned on my throughs when a notification popped out.
Grant Varcarcel reacted on a post you posted.
Napakunot ang noo ko, I don't remember having a facebook friend na ganon ang pangalan so I clicked his profile. His profile display is just a view of a sunset.
Tinignan ko rin ang mga albums nya hoping to see any pictures but wala akong nakita, baka nga arabo to. Naka private ang friendlist nya kaya wala rin akong makita.
Well, marami naman talaga akong facebook friend na hindi kilala. Akala ko kasi before paramihan ng friends sa facebook kaya kung sino sino nalang ang pinag a - add ko.
Napakamot nalang ako ng ulo sabay kunot ng noo, i-u-unfriend ko sana nang biglang nag chat si jacky.
Jacky:
10 pm na dae HAHAHAHA
It was indeed 10 pm kaya dali dali kong kinuha ang sinagutan kong mga papel at pinicturan para masend ko na sakanya.
Tinignan ko ang mga natirira ko pang subject na kailangan tapusin at napa buntong hininga nalang, haaay.
"This will be a really long night" I said to myself, maypupuyat ako para tapusin ang mga kaya kong tapusin today.
