dear a̶o̶y̶a̶g̶i̶ ̶t̶o̶y̶a̶ shinonome akito,
i'm constantly nervous around you.
what are you doing to me?
i always feel like
my heart is going to explode
when i'm around you.
i think i'm falling for you.
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he's so pretty.
i can't stop looking at him.
i watch as he tells me jokes
and stories.
i think i smiled
for the first time
in a while.
when i did,
he looked at me.
he had wide eyes,
but immediately smiled after.
he treats me better
than my own boyfriend.
i dont think i'm in love
with toya anymore.
akito motivates me
to do things.
he reminds me
to take care of myself.
toya doesn't care.
toya just makes sure
i don't have an episode.
me and toya don't talk much.
just when he reminds me
to take my meds.
i once had an episode
in front of akito.
he did much more than
just make me take meds.
he stayed with me
until the next morning
to make sure i was okay.
he didn't find me weird after.
he was just glad
i was back.
akito cares.
toya doesn't.
i slowly escape my thoughts
and actually listen
to what akito is saying.
sunset comes.
it's pretty.
i want more moments
like these.
just me and akito.
watching the sky.
i know that
akito loves me.
he's told me
about 100 times before.
i think
that i fell for him too.
toya won't like that.
how do i tell toya?
i dont want to go home.
toya will hate me.
he'll hate akito
as well.
that'll make akito hate me.
maybe i shouldn't
overthink it.
as it gets dark,
i bid akito goodbye.
i thank him
for bringing me out.
i start to walk home.
i get nervous.
i shake as i turn the doorhandle.
YOU ARE READING
GROAN , sa
Fanfiction‧˚₊•┈┈┈┈୨୧┈┈┈┈•‧₊˚⊹ but i pinky promise you, i'm grown ! shinonome akito x fem. reader sort of based on the song 'groan' by dazey and the scouts!
