SOLID

Nothing Compares to This

Peat was still very conflicted. Fort decided it was best if he slept in the palour, not knowing how Peat felt about everything that was written and he didn't want to push him at all. Fort was already laying down to sleep when Peat came in with the paper in hand and the ring in the other. Fort got up agilely staring at him. There was this fear in his eyes as he felt his body stiffen. Peat didn't say anything, he just kept gazing at him. It was clear he had been crying as there were traces of dried tears on his face
“ Is it fun for you? Huh... Fort?” he asked.
“Wha....t is?” Fort's voice was shaky.
“You, pushing and pulling me like a yo-yo, up and down, back and forth.  There's no consistency. You never put my feelings into consideration, you just push your own ideas, your own feelings of what's right and wrong. So let's assume I fall back in love with you again,per chance and something happens, what next, do I get flipped away again? Would you get tired and push me again? I'M TIRED OF YOUR GAMES FORT! And you make it so hard for me to say no, because you know I love you, because you know....” Peat was choked up by his own words. Fort walked towards him and grabbed his hands
“ I will never take you for granted, I know I've messed up in the past, I know I've been quite shambolic with my approach to you, with everything that had happened, I needed to be beside you, but I failed woefully, letting you leave without a proper explanation, I broke you, and I hurt you and for that babe, I'm really sorry, but can I make a request now?”
“ What do you want?”
“Will you marry me after we are able so solve everything? That venue is only available in five months and after that, we will never get another reservation there till four years time, and that's a dream venue.”
“ so what you're saying is you want me to marry you in four months, is that it? What makes you think I'll accept your proposal huh?  because When it comes to me, you're never protective and selfish.”
“ I'll prove it to you Peat, I'll prove to you that I'll always be there for you, I'll always stand by you, but just give me two months to prove it to you, and by the end of the two months, if you're unsatisfied, I'll give up completely and we can remain friends.”
“ Do you think I'll accept?”
“ If I've never requested for anything from you, please grant me this, I beg you.” After Fort said this Peat took a big sigh, he wasn't planning to say anything but the emotions that were building up in him got too heavy and he said
“ What if I decline, what if after four months I don't have any feelings for you and don't want to marry you? What happens then?”
“Till you tell me to stop, till you tell me that you want nothing to do with me, till you tell me you don't love me or like me anymore, I wouldn't stop, a venue is nothing, because of you I can't think straight, can't even focus on anything. Peat you have, you are and you'll always be important to me, living without you with the hope that you'll be fine, I ended up losing everything. you're my hope, my happiness and that will never change. The ball is in your court, what do you say?” Peat looked at the person who had caused him so much pain for so long. He couldn't even bring himself to be angry, one after the other a tear dropped.
“ You always make me cry, you always break my heart, always make me lose my way, I hate the power you have over me, I hate it because it makes my blood boil. I hate having to look at you and feel satisfied. How you can choose everyone and thing over me, how you break me till there's nothing left but deep down I know its because of me. How I feel giddy when I see you. You know what I hate the most? The fact that I can't stop my heart from falling in love with you. I want to be happy but I don't even know how long it would last.” Peat used one hand to clean his face that was messy because he had been crying, the other hand was still held by Fort, who did not have any intention of letting his hand go.
“ Fort?”
“ Yes Peat?”
“ Can I trust you this time? Can I put my heart in your hands again after all of this?”
“ Please Do.” Fort held onto Peat's other hand placing it on left part of his chest.
“ I wish you could see my heart that never stopped beating for you, I wish you could see my insides, Peat I would rather die than see you get hurt, but more so I would rather live and see you achieve all your dreams, all your aspirations, but with the hope that I'll be by your side, can I?” there was absolute silence in the room. No one said anything. What were they to say? There was nothing left to say. Fort pulled him closer and hugged him.
“ Peat, forgive me for not putting you first when I made plans, for not giving you your place as my fiance, pushing any idea I had on you feeling it was the best option, how I was never possessive of you and let you be.”
“ I want barbeque from that expensive place down town. Its one hour from here, if you can get it, then I'll think about your request, not accept, think about it.” Peat didn't finish and Fort was already off, not minding anything that was going on. He came back two and half hours later, “ Here's your dish, hope you consider me now?” Peat burst out laughing
“ I didn't know you were this desperate?”
“ For you, I could be anything.” Peat hugged him, but still had an uneasy feeling . He trusted him, but there would be repercussions for the Max incident and they both had to be prepared.