It's been 8 weeks later, morning sickness galore. My mother hears me vomiting in the bathroom and everytime she asks what's wrong with me, I just say a nauseous stomach. It has been 2 months since I found out I was pregnant and I can't keep hiding it anymore, I have to tell someone. Roy still doesn't know, he thinks everything is calm, cool, and collected, but little does he know I am going through hell each day I open my eyes. Even though things was distant between me and Roy after we first had intercourse, everything is going smooth between us right now and I'm afraid that if I tell him the news, it'll just ruin everything that we have started. I still haven't even told my closest friends Dex and Kye and I know I can trust them with anything, but I feel as if everyone will judge me.
The next day when I seen Roy in the hallway at school, I pulled him to the side and told him everything that has been going on these past two months. I had finally built up the courage and made my decision to tell Roy only to be knocked backed down. When I told Roy the news, he simply told me, "Do you, have fun." Tears ran down my eyes as I said, "But I didn't make this child alone!" Roy replied, "But you're carrying it alone, leave me out of that." I swear those words cut me deep and tore me down to the point where I couldn't even function or think straight. Did he really just tell me to leave him out of that? I couldn't believe what I just heard. I left school immediately after that conversation with Roy. That was one of the worst things someone has ever said to me. I took a bus home and I have never felt so alone in this world. I'm ready to run away from it all. While on the bus, I thought long and hard about what my next move should be. Should I break down and tell my mom? Or wait another month? This is really stressing me out along with school work. My grades are steadily plummeting down and this is the year I am supposed to be doing my best.
As soon as I got home, I called Dex and Kye on three way. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I told them everything that has happened, even the Roy situation earlier. Surprisingly, Dex and Kye were very understanding of me being pregnant and they did not look at me any differently. They knew I was stupid in love and they knew I thought I was doing the right thing with Roy. Although, Dex and Kye were very upset with the Roy situation. They don't understand why he can't step up to the plate and be a man about the situation. Dex has lost all respect for Roy after this. Kye asked, "Chanel did you ever tell your mom the news?" I said "no." Kye wasn't very understanding of that, and I didn't get why she didn't understand. My mom is crazy, and it would kill me to let her down with kind of news. She'll probably never look at me the same way once she finds out. Kye is not in my position, she will just have to understand that I am not ready to tell my mom yet. But I know I will have to let her know soon, she isn't a naive woman, her motherly instinct will kick in and she'll suspect something is up.
