When I wake up I see Elanor is already cleaning up. I get up and my body is kinda sore. I pop my back and get up to help her clean. We clean up and then we go and sit on her front porch. "It's so nice out here." I say. "Thanks I designed it all myself." She says. Then we see a white van pull up. "Hey El do you know that car?" I ask my heart starting to pound. "Yeah thats my dads van." She says. I feel my hair and yep I still have my small blade in my hair. Thank you Vallie for the idea.
I walk over and see El's dad. "Hi." I say nicely. "Hi just checking on Eleanor. Oh were going to be out for about 2 weeks on a trip. I just came to say I love you and that I am sorry that we havent been around that much." Her dad says. "Its fine." Eleanor says. They talk for a little while and then we go and sit back on the porch. "Hey you wanna go and take a morning swim?" Eleanor asks me. "Sure!" I say. "But wait I dont have a swim suit." I say.
"You can borrow one of mine." Eleanor says. We go into her room and we change. I wear a light purple bikini with white polka dots and Eleanor wears a red one with white polka dots. We go outside and jump in the pool. Its warm. We just swim around and relax. Suddenly we hear "IN WE GO!!!" Then Louis comes jumping in. He starts splashing us. Then Niall and Liam come jumping in. Zayn then comes in and just kinda stays in the shallow end. Harry stays inside and I wonder why. I just push it out my head though.
Harry's POV
I haven't talked to Carly in a while. I dont know if its bad but I feel like I dont love her like I used to anymore. I dont want to hurt her while keeping her going, so I guess I will have to break up with her. I feel really bad. I just I dont know how to tell her without hurting her. I gues I will have to try to be gentle.
Me:Hey Carly we need to talk
Carly: Sure babe what is it
Me: I love you and I always will but I dont feel that spark anymore. I love you but I think we need to break up. Im sorry.
Carly: Your your breaking up with me
Me: Yes I am so sorry
Carly: How could you do this to me! I thought you loved me its our 1 year anniversary how could you!
Me: I I I didnt realize what day it was I am so sorry I didnt know it was our one year anniversary. I dont want to hurt you.
Carly: First you break up with me then dont realize the day. Okay whatever bye
I just bury my face in my hands and cry. I dont love her like that anymore. I didnt want to hurt her. I am such a bad person.
Carly's POV
I cant believe that he would break up with me on our 1 year anniversary. He must hate me. I am to fat. I am to ugly to be with him. I thought he was the one person who cared about me. I bury my hands in my face cry. I shake with sobs. I look up and see all the Harry Styles posters. I tear them off the wall. I start tearing all the posters of the wall. I scream. I scream out of anger and pain. I fall sobbing.
He was the only thing keeping me in the world. I had been having a hard time. The hate on twitter and Facebook, dealing with all my friends turning there back on me. I had to deal with all this stuff and Harry came and made it worse. I hate him, No I dont I love him.
I grab my small hand knife out of my drawer. I hate myself. I am to ugly to date Harry Styles. I pull out my iPod. Then I pull out paper and pencil.
To whom it may concern:
Thanks alot Harry. I loved you, I gave you everything. Why? I love you though I always will. You were the only person who cared. You knew about me cutting myself before, the only person who really cared about me. I am sorry I did this but there is truly nothing left for me here, Alyssa, I am so angry with you because you have Niall. I dont blame you though. I always knew you would be a star. This is no ones fault and this was a long time coming. I love you all. Thank you One Direction for everything, I have always dealt with being suicidal so I guess I finally did it. Chloe I am so sorry and I love you. Bye Everyone XOXO Carly
I turn on Lost It All by Black Veil Brides. I put it on loop and then fill up the bath tub. When it is filled up I sit in it. I look at my arm. The faded cuts are still there. I cut my wrist deep. I hit a vein. I see the blood flow out. I put my arm in the water and the water turn red with blood. I start feeling drowsy. Goodbye cruel world. Then I close my eyes and the world goes black for the last time.
Alyssa's POV
I go back inside and see Harry crying. "Harry are you okay?" I say running to his side. "No I just broke up with Carly. I just I dont feel the spark but now I feel like it was a mistake and she wont answer my calls or texts." He cries. I hug him. "Its okay I will go over there with one of the other boys and talk to her." I say. He hugs me crying. "Dont worry Harry I will fix this." I say reasuringly. Then I go back outside. "Okay Harry just broke up with Harry and he feels like it was a mistake and he wants me to go with one of you boys to Carly's." I say.
"I'll go with you if its okay with El." Louis says. "Sure go with her Lou just be back fast." Eleanor says. They kiss and Louis and me get into his car and we drive over to her house. I start feeling like something is wrong. So I tell Louis to hurry. He hurrys up and we get to her house.
I knock and knock but no one answers. I pull the spare key out from under her mat and go in. I hear in the end playing and I run upstairs. The bathroom door is locked. "CARLY CARLY OPEN UP!!!" I yell. "Back up love." Louis says then he breaks open the door. I see Carly in the tub and her wrist is slit.
"NOO!!!!" I yell and then just fall on my knees. My whole botty feels numb. "no no no." I whisper. I feel the tears coming down my face. "Alyssa are are you okay?" Louis asks. "No no no." I whisper again. He hugs me and hides my face. I just start sobbing think why oh why. I try to stand up but as soon as I look at Carly again I fall crying again. Then another thought comes. How will I tell Harry.......................................................................
**Authors note**
Okay this was a hard chapter to write, Next chapter is almost done already and the only reason I didnt update sooner is it was hard. I promise the next one will be longer. I am sorry Carly I just had to, Hope you guys liked it please vote comment and fan!!!
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