Defeated

Chapter 19

Sierras POV :

"Im sorry that I couldn't be everything or anything you ever wanted that I couldn't possibly give you what Deanna gives you ... I , I'm just sorry"

I told him very quietly he looked broken he had tears in his eyes he was about to speak but I put my finger on his lips

"Shh .. Harry I-It's fine I think it'd best if we just go our separate ways we can hopefully be friends but I just don't think we are right for eachother , that we belong together , I wish we did but the universe is telling us that we don't . You an Deanna are meant to be .. I guess but I just want you to no one thing Harry"

I told him with my hand on his chest an the other cupping his face

"W-what is it"? He stuttered

" no matter what happens I will always love you Harry .... Always have and always will , I just wish it was the same thing vice-versa " I said quietly and for probaly the last time I could I gave him a small kiss on his lower lip an walked back up the stairs an started to cry whilst going up them .

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Vice versa means that I love him and he loves me also if you didnt get it

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I walked into my bedroom that everyone but Harry and Deanna were in they all had worried looks on there faces

"Love what happened" Louis asked me he looked the most worried out of everyone he even had tears in his eyes because he could see that I was breaking inside and out . I ran in his arms an hugged him and cried into his shoulder he sat on my bed and rubbed my back

"Harry and D-Deanna were k-k-k-kissing and I told him that me an him w-weren't ment to be " I cried

"But is that true"? He asked me

"What "?

"That you guys aren't ment to be do you believe that "? He asked me I stared at him blankly an thought about it

"I , I don't know I want us to be" I told him

"We think you guys are perfect for each other" Niall said and joined the conversation

"Thank you , but I don't know if he thinks that he probaly doesn't" I told him

"Im pretty sure he does babe he always talks about you like if we are at interviews concerts texts calls or even just hanging out , you - your his number one priority your always on his mind every day and night"

Liam said with a smile it made me blush . I mean if you were always on Harry Styles mind you would be blushing and smiling too .

"He loves you Sierra he really does I mean I've only known him personally for like a month - ish and he seems to talk about you a lot and from just the way he always smiles when your name is mentioned it shows he cares for you , a lot "

Annie said with a small smile I giggled at that comment it was cute that Harry would do that I just wish I knew for sure . I know they weren't lying to me but I want to hear it for myself from him but I know I never would .

"Can I just be alone please I need time to ... Think"? I asked them they all nodded an started leaving the room I grabbed louis hand as soon as he got up

"Please stay with me , If you don't mind" I whispered to him he smiled at me an tucked me in the bed an sat down beside me and started to stroke my hair . It was now about 5:00pm (they walked to his house so it took a whilst) I was getting sleepy from just everything that has happened .

"C-can you sing me something" I stuttered

"Of course " he smiled

" Im broken do you hear me ,

I'm blinded but you are everything I see ,

I'm dancing alone ,

I'm praying ,

That your heart will just turn around ,

And as I walk up to your door ,

My head turns to face the floor,

Cause I can't look you in the eyes and say ,

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight ,

it just won't feel right ,

Cause I can love you more than this ,

Yeah

When he lays you down I might just die inside ,

It just don't feel right ,

Cause I can love you more than this ,

Love you more than this ,

If I'm louder , would you see me

Would you lay down , in my arms and rescue me

Cause we are , the same

You save me ,

When you leave it's gone again ,

Then I see you on the street ,

In his arms I get weak ,

My body fails I'm on my knees

prayin '

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight ,

It just won't feel right ,

Cause I can love you more than this ,

Yeah ,

When he lays you down I might just die inside ,

It just don't feel right ,

Cause I can love you more than this ,

Yeah

I never had the words to say ,

Now I'm asking you to stay

For a little while inside my arms ,

And as you close your eyes tonight

I pray that You will see the light ,

That's shining from the stars above

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight ,

It just won't feel right

Cause I can love you more than this ,

Cause I can love you more than this '

When he lays you down I might just die inside ,

It just don't feel right , cause I can love you more than this

Yeah

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight

It just won't feel right ,

Cause I can love you more than this

When he lays you down I might just die inside ,

It just don't feel right

Cause I can love you more than this ,

Can love you more than this " he sang to me sweetly and I soon drifted off in to a deep sleep .

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