Hate me~ [Alhaitham x Kaveh]

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((ANGST,  TW: DEPRESSION,ABUSE))



Haitham's POV:

I woke up, still naked with Kaveh behind me. He snored softly, groaning in my ears. I sat up, sighing softly. I was exhausted but god, what would people think of me if they saw me here, with Kaveh, naked after dominate, rough sex? Nobody could ever know I had sex with Kaveh.. Not him.  Kaveh woke up, smiling, wrapping his arms around me as I smiled. I flinched when I was  touched. He smiled "You okay?" Kaveh asked. I shook my head causing him to frown. "What's wrong..?" He asked me. I looked away, crossing my arms over my muscular chest. My deep muscles slightly tensed. He sighed softly. "I can't be seen with someone like you, Kaveh.." I mutter, A hurt look spead across his face "W-What..?" he muttered. "You heard me kaveh, Your a disapointment, A low ranking idiot.. I can't be seen having relations with someone who has no manners like you..Your a drunkard.." I frowned. He looked away "Oh...I..Understand.." He nodded slowly, he seemed to be crying for some reason, I flinch, looking at him again, "Kaveh?" I call out to him quietly causing him to sniffle. He got up, putting his clothes on. I frowned "Kaveh.." I sighed "Don't talk to me! For a second..I thought..You like me..I though we..Could be more than just roommates that hate eachother.." He sniffled, his voice breaking from emotion.  "Fine! I don't have to talk to your stupid ass anyways, Get out of my room." I huff. He looked at me, tears in his eyes as he stormed out of my room. I got up, putting on the black shirt that hugged my deep, tight muscles, showing my deep abs. I put on my pants as I walked out of my room, seeing Kaveh packing his things "Where the hell are you going, kaveh." Kaveh glared at me, crying quietly "None of your fucking concern.." he picked up his bags "I'm staying with Tignari and Cyno!" I looked at him, frowning "No the fuck your not!" I blocked his way, my muscles tensing as I towered over him. He looked up at me "Out of my way!" He tried pushing me out the way before I grabbed his wrist, Crushing it, making him yelp "Ow! Ow! Haitham let go of me!" He yelped (Haitham giving yanderre daddy vibes, love to see it~) I finally let go "Shit! I didn't mean to..I apologize." I muttered quietly as he ripped he wrist away from me, his eyes shooting daggers at mine as he cried quietly in my arms. I hurt him yet he still turns to me for comfort..I'm damn near convinced there isn't any getting rid of him. He was so..Pretty, crying in my arms. He was so vulnerable. I wanted to protect him but why? I hate his attitude. He's whiny, arrogant, idiotic and annoying. So if I felt like that..Why did I want to protect him? I didn't understand emotions, I never claimed to. i always thought I was just heartless. Am I broken? Is that the reasonn I can never find love? I have emotions, that's without a doubt. I get pissed..And sad..And annoyed. Everyone feels that, So why do I tend to not feel emotions of sentiment towards people? Cyno is cold hearted, no doubt about it. But He has Tighnari..And Tighnari seems to be just fine with Cyno's attiude..Could I even have that with Kaveh? No..Not that I'd want to be in a realtion ship with Kaveh..This is just a one night thing between freinds..Or enemies..Doesn't matter anymore wht we are. I can't worry my self about such silly rubbish like Love or Realtionships. With Kaveh nonetheless.

Kaveh's pov:

I was crying in Haitham's arms. I was so scared of him but..I loved him. I loved him so much, I wanted him, I needed him in any and every way, I just wanted to be his, even if he wanted to hit me. I loved him. I always knew i wasn't straight, I've slept with men before, Haitham was far from my first. But..I was craving his sympathy. I wanted him to paper me, that was the only reason I threatened to Leave..Because I wanted him to spoil me, like he always did. I began hugging him, smiling. He huffed, he knew he got worked up just for me to faking it. He pushed me off, chuckling deeply "Your the worse." he muttered, laughing, running his fingers through his hair. I chuckled, basking in his attention. He sighed walking downstairs, fixing a drink. He knew how to hold his drink well so he often drank more than me. He sipped his drink, sitting on the couch. I sat next to him, leaning on him. I had so much work to do tomorrow. I was already behind on my work. He looked down at me, clenching his jaw at the burn from his drink. I  stayed silent, cuddling into him. Thats when I rushed up, I had to go, Now. He frowned up at me "Where are you going now?" He muttered. "I've got to go to the shop, now." I grabbed my keys quicky, rushing out the door. I started walking, Haitham's  birthday was coming out, I had to buy him something nice, Afterall, He was a asshoe but he always bought me stuff for my birthday. I ended up buying him a lion keyring. I put it in a gift bag. I started walking home, it was so damn hot, I was dying. I kept drinking water but nothing seemed to stop the unbarable heat I was feeling. I made it home, finally, Haitham wasn't in sight though.  I hid the gift, his birthday was tomorrow and It had to be PERFECT. I needed everything to go as planned, t'll just be us, me and him hanging out. i wanted him to be happy, I want him to have a good birthday for once. Something tends to go wrong every single birthday of him. I headed upstair, taking a warm shower. It felt so nice. I put clothes on and headed to my room, heading to sleep, content with the gift I got him. I was extremely sad still..Maybe it'll go away tomorrow.