Faith's P.O.V
I woke up and went down to the kitchen to get some water. I was on my way back to my room when I seen a note on the island it was from my mom.
Hey baby,
Me and your father are
Going on a date, your
Father planned it.. I
Know what you thinking your not ready to be alone with your babies. Well the keyword here is 'your'. Baby as much as I love my grand babies Its time for you to get to know them. These babies need you, their mother. I love you and I'll see you later.
Love Mom
Just when I finished reading the note I heard one of them start crying. I took a deep breath and made my way up the stairs. I walked into the room and saw Kamiya crying her heart out. I walked over to her crib and started to reach for her when that voice came back.
*What are you going to do? You couldn't even protect yourself what could you possibly do for them?*
I snatched my hands back quickly and tried not to cry. Kamiya looked right at me and stopped crying for a minute. I felt the tear start to form and then she started again. Kamari woke up then and started crying too. I backed up.
*Look what you did! Your even a bad mother and you haven't even tried to be one.*
The tears started to form more.
Faith- I can't do this
I ran to my room and called Giovanni. I wiped away the tears and tried to stop my sniffles but they just kept coming.
Giovanni- Hey baby is...
Faith- I can't do this Gio
Giovanni- Do what? What's
wrong? Are those the kids crying?
Faith- Yes... She she left them here and I cant do it Gio I can't I'm not good enough, I can't be their mother!
Giovanni- Ok baby just calm down I'm on my way
He hung up and I made my way back to the nursery. I just watched them cry. That's all I could do. It hurt to see my babies upset and not being able to comfort them. I walked over to their cribs again and looked at them. I started to reach for Kamiya when that voice came back.
*What are you going to do cry with her? Let her father do the parenting.*
I snatched my hands back. I'm not a mother, I'm a broken slut who cheated on her Fiancée and couldn't even save herself from a 50 year old woman. But these are my babies. I carried them, I birthed them, they need me.
I reached out again, ignoring the voice that went against me. I grabbed Kamiya and a sense of calm came over me as I pulled her into my chest. I smiled through my tears. She had stopped crying and was now looking at me. I walked over, picked up Kamari, and headed to the rocking chair. They watched me as I studied their little features.
Faith- My Babies.
I rocked in the chair with them on my lap. They cooed and smiled at me warming me completely. I smiled back and even started singing to them. I swear Kamiya started singing with me. Eventually they fell to sleep and I just took comfort in having them in my arms, close to me. I admired them both.
Faith- You two look just like your father. Yes you do.
I heard a chuckle and jumped from the sudden noise and immediately brought them into my chest to keep them safe.
Giovanni- Its just me baby
I relaxed a little and brought them back to their previous positions. He walked over and crouched down beside the rocker. He kissed both of them and then kissed me.
Giovanni- I'm happy to see you with them
Faith- I'm happy to be with them. I don't know what I was so scared of. I know I'm not worth it but they are.
Giovanni- You are worth it. You are worth it completely. And I promise you from this day forward you will not have to worry about anything baby. I love you with my entire being and I will never let anything else happen to you
Faith- But I cheated on you
The tears started to form again.
Giovanni- You did not cheat on me. You were taken advantage of and I will never blame you for that. But what I will do is fuck that nigga up when I find his bitch ass.
I smiled through my tears. I felt so loved and all the doubt that I had before had washed away. The doubt, the feeling of being unloved, worthless; it was gone.
Faith- I love you King
Giovanni- I love you Queen
Faith- And I love my little prince and princess
We laughed and he kissed me again. We spent the rest of the day playing with the kids and being a real family.
