REALIZATION

NWEBE

ps: violence, abuse

"Lumayas ako sa amin pagod na ako sa kanila palagi nalang"

Yun ang sabi ko sa kanila noong tanungin nila ako kung bakit andami kong dalang gamit

"Hindi ko alam kung paano ako magpapatuloy sa pag aaral dahil private ang pinapasukan ko hindi ako sigurado kung babayaran ba nila mom ang tuition ko" pag kwento ko sa mga kaibigan ko

"Mag transfer ka nalang kaya sa skwelahan namin, malapit lang doon ang bahay nila Jero kausapin mo yung bf mo na doon ka muna titira"

Ni process namin ang paper para ma transfer ako, peneke namin ang pirma ng mga magulang ko at naging successful naman na ma transfer ako ng school.

Lumipat na din ako ng bahay, mag isa lang doon si Jero dahil iba ang bahay ng mga magulang nya kaya nagkaroon kaming dalawa ng kalayaan.

Minsan doon nagaganap ang mga party, nagiging club ang bahay minsan nagiging tambayan din iyon depende sa mood

At first we did not have any problem about us living together but every situation are meant to be changed. Day by day our argument gets worse.

"I did not cheat okay? We were just hanging out as a friend" he yells at me, everyone can tell base on his expression that he is fuming mad

"Friends? naghahalikan ba ang friends ha Jero? tangina mo naman" before i can talk again he slapped me so hard, that the next day my face was swollen

It was the first time he hurt me physically, dahil lang sa minura ko sya. Pinatawad ko sya kase sabi nya magbabago sya pero hindi nagpatuloy yun hanggang sa halos araw araw na nyang ginagawa, kahit nasa harap kami ng mga kaibigan ko.

Gustong gusto kong umalis sa bahay na yun, sa impyernong yun pero hindi ako makaalis dahil bantay sarado nya ako, lahat ng galaw ko nalalaman nya

Napansin ko na may sumusunod sakin araw araw at nakilala ko agad kung sino iyon. Alam kong kapatid ko yun, gusto kong tumakbo sa kanya at sabihing tulungan nya akong makaalis sa impyernong yun pero hindi ko magawa kase alam kung malalaman ni Jero yun pag ginagawa kong mag sumbong.

I waited. Nag antay akong kusang lumapit si kuya sa akin at sabihin iuuwi na nya ako.

Habang nag aantay, mas lalong lumalala lang si Jero kahit kunting away lang namin ay sinasaktan na nya ako.

Hanggang sa napagod na akong mag antay dahil ilang araw na akong di sinusundan ni Kuya pag papasok at uuwi ako galing skwela.

I was starting to blame myself, it was my fault that i am in this situation right now.

If only i did not leave our house that evening.

If only i listened to kuya that my boyfriend was cheating on me.

If only i listened to him and take his advice to stop clubbing and unfriend all of them.

They know that u was suffering on the hand of Jero but they did not do anything. Also kuya he was following me for a month but he gaved up, he gave up on me.

So maybe this was my fate, after all this is the decision i made

"You are a m-therf-cking lier, you cheated on me several times but still i forgived you because i thought you'll change but you did not. Instead you became a terrifying human, no you can't be called as a human cause you are a monster. A f-cking monster" i was yelling at him, it was an ordinary for us to have an argument everyday

"You dont have the right to curse me, you b-tch" that day he hurted me so bad even my friend was their, they were all just watching me being beaten by a monster, they did not helped me, they abandoned me

Sinampal sampal nya ako at tinadyakan sa bandang tyan. My body can't take it anymore, it hurts like hell.

The last thing i remember was my friends were leaving but one of them is calling an ambulance and Jero was just staring at me, he left when he heared the siren of the ambulance

I woke up in a white room. I don't know how long have i been unconscious. Mom and dad was right beside me happiness was visible in their eyes i was also happy that they were the first one i saw when i woke up. I asked them where kuya is cause i want to talk to him so badly, to say sorry for everything

"Your kuya is in prison, he was framed that he was the one who made you look like this. Today is his retrial" mom answered.

I insisted to go there i wanna be a witness. I am the only one who can help our lawyer  to get kuya out of the prison. The doctor said we can go but only for a couple of hours cause im not fully recovered yet.

And now im here standing as a witness on my brothers trial, promising that i will only say the truth as a witness

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