A Lost Cause

2 Negatives make a Postive

🔞ahead 🐭War's POV

It has been a long night. I was drunk but I still can't sleep. Not a wink. Dark clouds loom the skies, it feels like there's a storm brewing.

I looked at the watch it reads 6 AM. I've been calling him, one every hour. It's almost noon there but he still cannot be reached.

I got ready for work; my body feels weak. I've been feeling tired and listless for the last two weeks. But last night was my last straw. That one really made a dent on my day.
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My day was dragging so bad, I can't concentrate, my mind was off. Lunch passed but I still haven't reached Yin. I almost wanted to ask Mai to go to Yin. But I know she's really stressed with her new drama. I don't want to reach out to my family as well.

Afternoon rolled, around 4PM I received another message. From another unknown account. I don't want to open it. I'm scared of what I'll see. I took a deep breath but I'm still feeling dizzy.

I eventually convinced myself to open it. I went to the office's pantry area to prepare coffee and a snack since I still have a long day ahead today.

As I sit on one of the highchairs facing the wide windows overlooking the calm mountains. I opened the message.

The first thing I saw was a couple of photos. I know they are the same as last night's sender. The quality is similar. There's a message into included: You should break it up, it's hard for him to think of excuses for you to get out of his life. Let him have the family he really wanted.

They were both naked, and it's the same girl from last night. Fern, his ex. My face feels numb, my thumb shakes as I hover over the MP3 file included.

I quickly fished the airpods in my pocket and wear them. This is it. There's no going back. I clicked and the time bar shows it's a 15-minute-long audio recording. What is this?

I pressed play and what I heard broke me. Yin's voice was clear, I know it's him.

Yin: You're being absurd, Fern. I don't want to talk about this.
Fern: But you like him. I know you do.
Yin: I... I only like him as a person, nothing more than that.
Fern: But when you're together you're different
Yin: You know what? We're having a great night, I only got to see you today since you and I are really busy. And you're hung up on something that is not even there!!
Fern: Just be honest with me. Do you like him? Do you even want me right now??
Yin: Fern. There is no future with War. Do you think for a second, that my mother would ever approve of that?? Not a chance. And if you're asking me if I want you? Come here?
Then there's some ruffling sounds.
Yin: You feel this? This is how hard you make me. Only you.

The audio continued, a lot of kissing and moaning sounds drowned me, my ears started ringing.

All of a sudden, I'm back in that convenient store. My parents on the floor, blood all over their bodies. Multiple gunshots firing everywhere. I'm hugging them, blood all over my hands. I'm bawling my eyes out and calling for Mom and Dad to wake up and not leave me.

"War! Are you okay?" I was Becky that brought me back. I quickly pressed stop and closed the message.

"Why are you crying?" she asked. Which made me touch my face. I didn't feel that tears have covered my face. I looked at her and slowly laughed.

"God damn it, Wanarat. Tell me, you're scaring me."

My laughs turned to small sobs, into full on crying. My legs gave out so now I'm on the floor crying.

"Let's get out of here. Now" I heard her say, my body's so weak that it took her longer to pulled me up. Once we're inside her car she drove out. Just drove, as I cry on the passenger seat. Curled into a ball.