900 Year Old Love Letters

Ch 11. When Fear Helps

Thisll be quite a long chapter, 7600 words... so buckle up. It'll be emotionally challenging at best, traumatic at worst. :)

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I waited for Morgana to come back that day but she never did. I didn't have anyone visit and I didn't have anything to eat or drink, I feel sick and I'm confused how I'm not genuinely dying from starvation. Perhaps it has something to do with how they've kept me asleep, magic maybe.. Besides that, I've been missing for two and half weeks, I wonder if Jim is okay still?.. Now that I'm thinking about it, everyone that was there to help Jim and I in those short moments- Claire, Hisirdoux, Merlin, were all looking back to me before I passed out.. Then everything disappeared, I hope they're alright still..
I wonder how bad Jim's injury is. It sounded fatal from what Morgana told me. If I don't pull the stone from his chest with whatever spell she still hasn't taught me yet, he'll die.. I wonder if I'll die when I cast the spell? I think even if I knew I'd die, I'd still do it. I've finally got to be with Jim again, he knows exactly who I am and who he is to me. And soon enough, he'll learn of my past with his future.

The ancient wizards never came to see me but Morgana finally came back after a day I awoke. She immediately taught me that cursed spell and gave me every instruction on how to complete it. It was rather simple yet scared me, truly. After that, it was time I turned into a troll.. She hurried to release me from the cell and took me to a large pool inside this castle. It was dark black, she told me she had put a potion in there. She told me that Merlin himself created it!.. When I asked when she talked to him I received more bad news..

"We went searching for Merlin and his apprentice. Only I found Merlin in your library, the other was missing. I asked him to help me turn you like the Trollhunter.. Initially, he thought it was a horrible idea but he knew as well as I that it'd help.. Then Screll burned the shop.." she explained with a heavy heart. It nearly shattered mine. My Cafe and nice afternoons with Jim are forever gone..

"I suppose it doesn't matter.. I couldn't go back anyway.." I muttered as I removed my shoes beside the pool before taking a step in. It's so cold and dark..

"Float to the middle and let yourself sink.. You'll be born a new in no time. I'll be here waiting for your return." She explained quietly as I let myself walk in without a word but my mind was running. I couldn't stop thinking of every memory I had as a human, good or bad. I'm scared because I've finally gained everything I've wanted but now it may disappear with my human self..

When I couldn't touch anymore, I began to float on my back and ended up in the center of the pool as if it were pulling me in. I was terrified as I took my last breath and looked at the ceiling above before I let it all go and began to sink into the dark water..

There was a moment of pain as I sank when I lost my breath then blacked out. It felt like such a short time I was asleep then had woken up.. I don't know where I was or what I should be doing but I recognized I was on some sort of castle flying in the air. We were at war with what looked like my castle from Camelot flying across from us. The castle I stood on shook causing me to lose my already unstable balance and fall. I couldn't see well nor could I keep my balance. Suddenly I couldn't feel the ground anymore anyway and when I had opened my eyes, I realized I had been falling through the sky. I began to panic and tried to use my magic to catch myself. It didn't work so well but it slowed my fall somewhat. I had been falling into some sort of open gap in the sky like a few others. When the ground finally hit me, I managed to catch my breath. I was lost in a forest that looked all too familiar.

It took me a while to realize what's happening. As I began to walk through the dark night, I noticed what's happened to my body. I am a troll.. I don't have shoes though I'm wearing a gown, one of my time period. Morgana must've gifted this to me, I wonder when I became this troll.. How long did it take?.. My hair was still short but messy and I had these horns, ones of a ram curving around my head a little. Not to mention the teeth sticking out of my mouth though they aren't too bad I pray..