My hero

Realization

This is my first bakudeku fanfiction. Me and my girlfriend roleplayed all this, and I decided to make it into a fanfiction sorry if its not good also WARNING IN THIS STORY THERE IS RAPE, ABUSIVE, ALCOHOL USE, SUICIDAL, AND SELFHARM

Deku- I sit behind bakugo and continue to write down the notes that Mr. Aizawa was writing on the board. I was so tired from last night studying. My thumb and index finger were bruised from me rewriting my notes last night. I rest y hand on my face and look out of the window ad watch the branches sway in the wind My eyes have dark circles around them I sigh as I pull my head back towards the board, and see that there is one more note for me to copy down. I look down at my notebook and pick up my pencil with my bruised fingers and begin to write but I gasp and drop my pencil on the floor and it rolls off. I grab my hand and bite my lip and trying to soothe the pain away by rubbing it.(

Dammit, I have to stop staying up late and studying)

Bakugo: *taking notes, trying to ignore the nerd behind him, writes down the last part of the notes*

Deku- I look around for my pencil but cant find it I exhale a breath and drop my head on the desk and close my eyes feeling very tired, I hear some motion in front of mw I raise my head only a little  and look at the back of bakugo's hair. Bakugo's hair looks so soft and i have always thought it was perfect His hair looks spikey, but I think it might be soft, A smile forms over my face, a tap on my shoulder startles me and pulls me out of my thoughts of Bakugo's Hair

Kiri: *holding out the pencil deku dropped, gives him a toothy smile and whispers* 

"You good, Deku?"

Deku- I look at kiri and his wide toothy smile. *Smiles back* 

"Yeah i'm good Kiri sorry I was up pretty late last night studying"Kirishima walks over to bakugo and slings his arm about his shoulder. 

"Yeah, Bakugo you never study you always playing video games maybe Deku should tutor you."

 *Kiri starts to laugh loudly.* *Deku only smiles and does a silent giggle*

Bakugo: *rolls his eyes, annoyed, crosses his arms*

 "pffft, yeah right like I'd let that damn nerd give me lessons on how to be a hero. "

 Kiri-"Hey bakubro come on... you know he's very smart and he thinks clearly he doesn't act like a kindergartener when someone takes away their airplane."*Kiri hold his stomach and burst out laughing.

Bakugo:"don't forget he's clumsy as hell, drops everything in his hands, and stutters like a little kid. There's no way I'm going to let him tutor me."*looks away and blushes but hides it by packing up his things, he thinks about it and glances towards deku* 

Deku- Bakugo's words hit me like a bullet, I drop my smile fast and drop my head  Kirishima looks at me confused I put away my notebook and pen and feel my phone vibrate. I look at it. 

William-"I need you to come to the bathroom, your in deep shit you piece of shit." 

Deku-*Sighs, raises hand* 

"Mr.Aizawa can I go to the restroom please?" Mr.aizawa nods I grab my bag and start to feel my anxiety sweep over me. I felt cold and afraid. I stop in front of Bakugo.

"Kacchan, you don't need me to tutor you because your already are a great hero. you are better than me and I will admit it." I take one more look into those crimson eyes and walk away to the bathroom

Bakugo: "damn right I am." * holds eye contact with deku but notices his body language is way off from usual, watches as deku leaves then looks at Kirishima*