Deku is a depressed boy, he is scared to loss everybody so he thinks it is safer to let them go, and watch them live without him in their lives, but Bakugo wants him to be in every second of his life, Deku just can't agree, he always goes back in his mind and stays there, he has been through so much trauma he doesn't know how to let go, or just let Bakugo stay in his life, he has only run from his problems and never commit to them, He wants to commit to bakugo, cause he is scared to lose him. Blackwhip is in this chapter too
DEKU- *I sit up on Kacchans lap and flutter my eyes up at his Crimson eyes, grab his shoulder and feel my heart hurt*
" I'm sorry.....why do I always ruin these moments...I am always a crybaby and don't think about happy stuff...I think about all the bad things" *hits kacchan's chest with my fist but not hard, too weak to do it*
"Why...why am I like this, I want to smile and feel happy and never think about the possibilities that could make you leave me*Sobs and hits harder*I...wish I never met William.. It's my fault because I never told you my true feelings" *removes my head from his head and look at him with fear*
"Look where it lead me, I cant eat, I cant smile the same, I cant laugh the same, My body is covered in scars, Why Kacchan, I don't deserve this love..I don't know what to do with it, I just make you mad and sad and angry..." *Hits his chest and sobs on his shoulder*
"I'm sorry...Kacchan..."
Bakugo: *grabs hold of his hands, holds them to his chest*
" You didn't ruin the moment. You were just treated poorly for so long, that that's all you know, and that's all you can think about, But it's over now. Not everything has to be seen as bad. Yes, there is bad things in this world, but no matter they will still happen, you just gotta look for the bright parts in life to get through that darkness.. I know all this must sound like bullshit to you.. but, you are that light in my life..." *wraps his arms around him, holds him tightly against him*
" It doesn't matter to me whether your body has been scarred or not because that is not what I look at. I see you, the real you, the kind hearted person who puts other before yourself, who makes sure others are taken care of because you take care of yourself. You would put your life on the line for those you care about. And those people are grateful for that."
DEKU- *I feel my heart drop at those words But something in my mind is causing me to cry more thinking about the day that Kacchan's smile will fade and his face turns dark and the last thing I will see is his back walking away from me I push Kacchan away from me and shake my head and refuse to look at t hose eyes that make me melt and make me feel like.....home*
"K...kacchan... You cant lie to me...No more, All I do is make you mad or sad or worried" * I get off his lap and feel feelings in my legs again, I crawl off the bed and wipe my tears*
"Why.. do I make you mad and sad and worried.."*looks at his eyes and my face emotionless and stains of tears on my face*
"It's because I don't know how to love someone.. I don't even love myself I think I am worthless, All I know is to look at the bad moments and just accept them, I don't try to fight, to make them turn good" * Looks at the shirt I'm wearing and smiles lightly*
"I know I'm a handful...Because everyone gives up and leaves or cheats but its okay, Because"* I grip the shirt and look up at Kacchan and feel my heart break at his face*
"I'm used to it...Kacchan..If you ever....ever get bored or want someone one else and I know you say you love me too much, William said that too and look what he did.HE BEAT ME..HE RAPED ME HE...HE...CHANGED ME"*Hits my head*
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FanfictionIzuku Midoriya fell in love with his best friend but everything changed when they grew up, Bakugo hated him more, Izuku was in an abusive relationship, Denki, Urakaka and Shoto were the only ones that knew what was goin on, Bakugo notices something...
