Behind Those Imperfections

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I thought everything was already perfect. All I wanted was to live a happy and peaceful life. Unfortunately, life isn't always like that, which is the sad part. I experience a lot of events every day, both pleasant and negative. That's when I came to the conclusion that you shouldn't always expect anything as you'll end up getting hurt.

Simula bata pa ako ay namulat na ako sa buhay, sa kahirapan. Mahirap mabuhay sa mundong ito ng walang trabaho. Bakit? Dahil pag wala kang trabaho, wala ka din makain. So I strived hard in order to finish my degree and help my parents. Pero kahit anong gawin ko ramdam ko na may kulang pa rin, hindi lang sa buhay ko kung hindi sa sarili ko.

I'm that girl who always has a plan. I planned for everything, including my future. Because that's always on my mind—to plan and to pursue it. Naniniwala ako na kapag may plano ka ay magiging maayos ang takbo ng buhay, like you have a direction, a path that could lead you to a brighter future.

Pero nakakatawa nga naman, dahil iba ang naging ihip ng hangin sa buhay ko. All the plans I had in mind before are much different from what's happening in my life now. I thought my plan would be perfect; however, I realized that maybe God has different plans for me.

Yes, I earned a degree and got a job, but I'm still struggling in life. So for the first time in my life, I decided to take a risk and started working far away from my hometown. There, I was able to witness how hard life is. I didn't apply for a job and didn't even tell my parents. I went to that place without any plans. Tanging trabaho lang ang nasa isip ko. With the money I saved, I was able to live until I found a job.

That's when I met him. The so-called perfect man—everyone would envy him and even describe him as a perfect person—was a perfect match for them. Girls would swoon over him and even dream of being his girlfriend. Why? Because they said he has no flaws. He has all he needs and excels in all things, whether they be in business, sports, or other pursuits.

I hate him because he has everything he wants. He can easily buy things and can also throw them away easily. I hate him because he has lived a good life, unlike everyone else who struggled so much. 

Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit nag-iba bigla ang takbo ng buhay ko simula ng nakilala ko siya, like my life suddenly turned 360 degrees. Maraming nabago sa buhay ko at marami akong naranasan, at alam kong marami din akong matututunan. 

I've witnessed that the so-called perfect man has flaws and isn't even perfect at all. I've witnessed how he struggles with whatever happens in his life. Doon ko napagtanto na lahat pala ng tao sa mundong ito ay may iba't-ibang problemang kinakaharap, at hindi lang pala ako ang may dinadalang problema sa mundong ito.

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Abangan!