debut • harry styles

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SUNSHINE
8.29.2022

once i make it back into the hotel room, i quietly shut the door and take a shower. i can't tell if the water on my face are my tears or the shower water.

most likely both.

i put my hair back into a low braid and put on my pajamas which consist of a t-shirt and some shorts.

"i thought you got kidnapped." billie said sitting up in her bed.

"jesus, bils." i say sitting up in mine. "you scared me."

"where you crying?" billie asks noticing my most likely red eyes.

"no." i reply. "how was your night?" i ask, trying to change the subject.

"fine." billie replies. "come talk." she says patting the spot next to her in her bed.

i sit down. "i'm fine, billie." i say.

"what's wrong, isa?" billie asks fixing her position so that we were sitting criss cross in front of each other.

i try not to let me emotions get the best of me, but my eyes start to feel with tears anyway.

"babe." billie says sympathetically pulling me into her arms. her actions make me cry even harder.

"he, he has a girlfriend." i manage to say while sobbing into billie's arms.

"i'm sorry." billie says rubbing my back with her hand. "tell me what happened."

i pull away from her and wipe my eyes. i begin to explain everything.

"remember that day i asked you to drop me off at harry's?" billie nods. "well he told me he has feelings for me, but i told him i needed time to think about it because the only thing holding me back from being with him is the internet and his fans, so i took some time to think about it, which he completely understood."

"then before the show today, i was going to tell him i came to a decision, but he assume i was going to say no and he got a little mad, so before i left i told him i was going to say yes." i say.

"then, he felt bad about it and sang that song on stage for me." i say. "then we met in times square and he apologized, and we talked for a little bit and he walked me back to the hotel."

"that's when he told me he has a girlfriend." i say. "her name is beca."

"isabelle, i love you so much." billie said taking my hand in hers. "but sometimes you can be so stupid."

"what do you mean?" i ask her. when you nod your head yes, but you wanna say no. sorry. distracted.

"beca is her name right?" she asks, i nod. "he lied to you, hun. he doesn't have a girlfriend."

"how do you figure?" i ask.

"beca." she says slowly, trying to let me connect the dots myself.

"beca." i say. anna kendrick plays a character named beca in pitch perfect. "oh."

"so why'd he lie?" i ask.

"because he didn't know what to say, he likes you, i know he does, but he's nervous out of his mind. you have to make the first move." billie says.

"and how do i do that?" i ask, can you tell i'm not particularly experienced in the relationship department?

"that's for you to figure out." billie said shrugging her shoulders. "just do whatever feels right."

"thanks, bils." i say getting back into my own bed. i get under the covers and get situated.

"billie." i say, making her turn over to me. "who's jesse?" i ask.

i see a smile creep onto her face at the mention of his name. i know who jesse is, he's in the band the neighborhood.

he is older though, and i know billie has known him for a while. she just recently went through a breakup back around april.

"nobody." billie replies rolling back over. i turn the lamp off that sits in between the two beds and i go to sleep too.

~
harry's point of view
~

i messed up.

i messed up so bad and i don't think belle will ever talk to me again. i shouldn't have lied to her, i should've just told her the truth but i couldn't.

she makes me nervous, and i've never felt that way before, ever.

i know she's upset about what i did, i could hear it in her voice and it broke me anytime she spoke.

i can't help the fact that i'm falling in love with her and it's scaring me. bad.

i want to be around her all the time, she's like a ball of sunshine, she is the sun.

she's the sun, and i'm the earth.

the earth can't survive without the sun.

the entire solar system revolves around the sun, it needs it to keep going. everything spins around the sun.

and everything is better when the sun is out. the weather is nicer, my mood is better, everything is better when the sun is out.

the sun has the ability to grow rainbows after in rains, it has the ability to melt the snow away. the sun is the biggest star in the sky.

i love stars.

the sun can create the most beautiful sunrises and sunsets each a different color every day. the sun brings people together.

the sun brings comfort and warmth. the sun keeps away the chaos. the sun shines extremely bright every single day.

yes, the sun brings on sunburn and heat strokes and sometimes uncontrollable amounts of heat that tend to be uncomfortable.

but if belle is the sun, i'll risk it all to stay under the sun every day for the rest of my life.

the sun is selfless. so far away from the rest of the planets, so bright but so alone.

the center of the universe, but still alone.

alone, but also lonely. the moon has the earth considering they are so close in range.

but the sun, it shines without ever asking for anything in return.

but the thing is, belle isn't the sun.

she shines brighter than the sun. she doesn't stop shining when the sun sets and the moon rises, she shines everywhere, everyday.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

i'm working on a jack hughes wattpad rn, i think i'll start uploading it tmr :)))))