Abandoned

Chapter 6

That's him. Where has he been for the last, I don't know how many years when I'v needed him the most. Isn't that's the point of a god father, he's supposed to support and be there for you as a father would. Nice job joe, nice job.

I can't help but feel angry towards him but I'm confused with the feeling that's lingering deep down, he's practically family and I have practically non of that left.

Maybe my mum wanted joe to be part of our lives and that's why she insisted on me making Georgia happy knowing that we'd end up crossing paths if I would follow her wishes.

I'm so confused right now. I can't think straight, I'm hot and tired after today and it's that time of day where I'm feeling really low and missing my mum the most.

Normally, before she was ill it was our time 'Abbie and mum' time once georgia had gone to bed. We'd watch films and have a cuddle on the sofa, or have a pamper night catching up on gossip or doing ridiculas challenges like the chubby bunny challenge, filming it and watching it back howling at how gross and special we looked.

I needed to see her, I want to see her. I need to know what she'd say, what she would do. Mums always give the best advice and that's what I need right now, my mum, but that's not possible.

I can feel tears prickling at my eyes threatening to fall as I stare down blankly at my lap leaving a deadly silence between joe and me.

I look up to see him staring directly at me, his eyes regretful and caring and he nervously twiddled his ring around his finger.

"I need to go" I tell him, standing up and rushing out of the room trying to find my way back to the dressing room to pick Georgia up and get the hell out of here.

"Wait" I here joe call from down the other end of the corridor where I had previously been but I continued turning right and eyeing the laminated paper that signalled the dressing room.

I didn't bother knocking but walked straight into a squealing Georgia who was sat on Tristan's shoulders as he was twirling around in circles.

"Abbie" connor shouted as he saw me looking up from his phone "hey" I smile trying to hide my broken voice and teary eyes "come on Georgia we need to get home" I say walking over to her and picking her off tristan keeping her in my arms.

"Wait but it's not safe yet" james said standing up from the sofa and walking over to us "she needs to go to bed" I say picking up my jacket and bag which was kept in a corner

"bye guys thanks for looking after her, You'v been amazing" I smiled as they all walked over to us and gave Georgia a hug who had become sleepy all of a sudden and was falling asleep on my shoulder.

"Bye" I shout to them as I walk out of the door eyeing joe waiting outside "look Abbie" he begins but I cut him off "look I'm tired, confused and only keeping my shit together by this much" I hiss holding my spare hand that wasn't carrying Georgia about half a centimetre apart.

The boys must have heard the raised voices as they all spilled out Into the corridor "I hope your telling her it's not safe for her to be going" james says to joe "leave it james" joe instructs and james steps back offended slightly.

"Look I know I havnt been there for most of your life or Georgia's but let me be there now when you need it the most. I'm not just going to disappear again now your in my life again" he says his voice calmer than before

I can't help but feel a pang of... I don't even know but it made me slightly happy knowing I potentially had someone in my life who was going to stick by me.

"Take this and ring me when your ready" and he pushes a business card into my hand with his personal number scruffily written in biro.

"Okay." I nod giving him a tiny smile as I begin walking down the corridor turning round once to give the rest of the boys a little wave before I turned the corner.