Pain |н.ѕ|

Chapter 4 || Waking Up

Song for the chapter:
Story of my life -One Direction
Brave -Sara Bareilles

Alex's POV

Darkness. That's all I could see. It absolutely terrified me. Is this death? I wanted to open my eyes but something was holding me back.

I was scared shitless. I wanted to talk to someone, say something. I just wanted this darkness to go away.

Just then I saw a little spot of light. Suddenly, all the darkness was gone.

I was in the beautiful meadow, where I first met my mother. I looked around trying to find my mother, I saw no one.
Then I saw her. She was smiling, I smiled and ran to her hugging her.

"Hello, my dear." She said, I mumbled a Hi and pulled away from the hug.

"Am I dead?" I asked, she just chuckled.

"No, honey you are not dead, this is in your head, you are just scared to let go." She said, holding my hand.
"What?" I asked, confused.

"Alex, dear your scared of the darkness but your more scared about how if you woke up you will be back to your old life, the one that you don't want."

What she said was actually true. If this was a dream, and my dad was still free then I don't want to wake up, no matter how much darkness scares me.

"I don't want to go back to that life." I whispered, tears coming in my eyes. No, I can not cry.

I blinked away the tears, I looked at my mother who had a guilty expression on her face. Well she did leave me in this hell hole.

"Honey, things aren't the same now, your dad is gone. He is gone for good. You have to wake up, there are people who need you. People who care for you."

I scoffed, "Like who?" She smiled. She definitely loves smiling, I thought.

"You'll find out when you go back, Alexandria listen to me." She said, looking serious now.

"Things are going to change, they are going to be bad and good. It's not going to be easy. You will find people that you can trust and love. But I need you to promise me something?" She asked, I nodded motioning her to continue.

"I need you to promise me to be brave. That you won't hesitate to make sacrifices for people you love." She said, while taking my hand and putting it on her cheek.

"I promise." I said, nodding my head, smiling.

"It's time for you to go back, things are changing. Remember one thing, 'Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional'." She said, fading away. She mouthed 'I love You.' I smiled.

All the light was gone, and darkness engulfed me once again. I gathered all my strength and tried to open my eyes.

I can do it.

I can do this.

C'mon Alex.

I opened my eyes, the brightness of the light blinding me.

My eyes finally adjusted to the brightness, I looked around the room, it was all white. Where the hell am I? I looked at my arms, they were bandaged up.
What the hell?

Then it all came rushing back. How I met Harry, how I was beat up by my dad, how he got arrested, and me going unconscious. I smiled at the thought that my dad was gone.