Those Three Months

Part 10

Wei Wuxian looked deeply into those gold eyes. How did he not see it before. Lan Wangji saw Wei Wuxian as his life and love. Wei Wuxian huffed out a chuckle not wanting to believe it. Tears formed in his eyes.

"Let me tell you," Wuxian said, "I have only ever been dotted on by my shijie. I may be a flirt but I don't usually get anything from it other than harsh remarks. If you are telling me this entire time that Lan Zhan likes me, how am I so blind? I don't know what it's really like to really have a person care for me. I am usually the one doing the caring and get nothing out of it.

If you want to know, a few days after I gave up my golden core, I was captured by Wen Chao. I was humiliated, beaten, and tortured. He kept trying to get me to tell him where my siblings were, but I never gave him the information. He had some of his people hold me as they took me somewhere. The next thing I knew, they pushed me from several hundred feet in the air into the Burial Mounds. I nearly gave up and wanted to let my life slip away.

The cold, the bitter taste in the air, and the resentful energy just trying to have its fun. I only kept going for a couple reasons. One, I knew my siblings were going to need me and two...." Wei Wuxian looked at Wangji again, "I kept hearing him call out to me. A spirit tried to fool me by appearing to look like Lan Zhan, but I knew and told him to stay away.

It was as if the energy knew what I felt before I knew it myself. I cannot be the person you both expect of me. I am tainted and I don't deserve to have such feelings for you, Lan Zhan. I don't deserve you at all. I am not good enough, especially now that I am completely broken and useless."

"Not broken, not useless," Wangji said, "if anything I do not deserve such a selfless person but my heart only beats for you now, Wei Ying."

Wei Wuxian blinked a couple times as he took in what Wangji said. He had tears forming in his eyes again, and he knew that it was potentially going to be painful but Wuxian found himself launching himself at Wangji. Wuxian's arms wrapped around Wangji's neck as Wuxian buried his face into his neck as well.

Lan Wangji sat there for a moment as he was a bit surprised by Wei Wuxian's gesture. Something within Wangji snapped and he pulled Wei Wuxian on to his lap before securing his arms around Wuxian into a comfortable embrace. For the first time in so long, touch was not painful to Wei Wuxian, and he almost forgot what warmth felt like. Wei Wuxian found himself crying, he didn't want Wangji to let him go.

"Lan Zhan," he whispered before sitting up in his lap and looked at him, "let me do what I need to do during the campaign and then after it is over, I will not leave your side. If you wish to have me, I will try and make it work. I am broken probably beyond repair but if I have you and you want to help me, who am I to say no...I potentially only made it out of the mounds so I could see you again."

Lan Xichen smiled at the two, "I am going to give you two some privacy. I promise I will not share this information with anyone, but I will find an excuse to tell your siblings about returning to Cloud Recesses with us after this campaign is over," he said standing, "and I will leave the privacy talisman up, I am just going to add one more on my way out."

Wangji and Wuxian watched Xichen leave but saw him slap on a talisman on the door of the tent. It was to prevent others from entering until the talisman was to be removed.

Wei Wuxian blushed and narrowed his eyes, "what is he playing at?"

Lan Wangji smirked as he stood up with Wei Wuxian cradling like a bride in his arms, "I do not know," Wangji said as he walked over to his bed and set Wuxian down, "are you tired?"

"I do not sleep much anymore, nightmares are a normal occurrence these days," Wuxian said, "if you are asking me to lay down and sleep, I do not think that is a good idea."

"I will hold you," Wangji offered.

Before Wei Wuxian could protest, Lan Wangji crawled into the bed beside him and pulled him over into a cuddle, "how are you so warm? I don't remember the last time I felt such warmth? I've been so cold lately," Wuxian said.

"Will always keep you warm and safe, Wei Ying," Wangji assured him.

Wuxian looked up at Wangji, "I think I understand what I feel about you..." Wangji was curious but kept his mouth closed, "Lan Zhan, I think I am in love with you. It's the only thing I can think of. You are all I think about, all I have in my mind. All I think about is being in your arms like this, and having you all to myself."

Lan Wangji smiled down at Wuxian, "love Wei Ying," he confessed, "I did not know how to feel when we first met. When you went missing, I knew my feelings towards you, and I knew I was in love with you."

Wei Wuxian snuggled closer to Wangji, "how can you love me now?"

"You are still Wei Ying," Wangji said, "and I will help you get back on your feet again. When this fight is over, you and I can rest and I can help you with what I can about you recovering from all the injuries you suffered."

Wei Wuxian's heart felt like it was going to beat out of his chest. As the two laid on their sides facing each other and holding each other close, Wei Wuxian reached up and placed a kiss on Wangji's cheek, very close to his lips. Lan Wangji quickly but also gently reacted in return and placed his hand on the back of Wuxian's head. He then pulled him back to him and kissed him on the lips when he was close enough.

Wei Wuxian responded to him by kissing him in return. The kiss was simple and it was nothing too lustrous. As much as Wangji really wanted to devour his lips, he was going to take it easy. Wei Wuxian was sensitive to the touch so Wangji wanted to make sure Wuxian was comfortable.

***

As promised, after the campaign ended, Wei Wuxian stayed by Wangji's side. Jiang Cheng let Wei Wuxian do what he needed to do as Wuxian deserves to be happy. He felt if Wangji made him happy, who was he to stand in the way.

Wei Wuxian also managed to have the amulet destroyed without it harming him, as he had the help of multiple people to do it. He spent his time in Cloud Recesses to heal, and to marry to love of his life Lan Wangji. Wangji was patient and kind and was always willing to help him heal and get through his pain. Wangji was able to help soothe him a lot when his pain became too much.

He helped Wei Wuxian's body heal, he helped him recover slowly and tended to him with so much love and devotion. Lan Xichen was happy that his brother had found his happiness. He vowed that he was not going to let anyone take that away from him.

THE END