The melody to my songs

Chapter 11 : James

~Chapter theme song : Idle town, Conan Gray ~

May asked me to come over today, I thought it would be awkward for me and Liv but she said Liv will be out, se had to submit her designs. I loved Liv's work, she was so passionate about it and she absolutely loved her job.

She was a designer and illustrator, she was hired on contract basis by various renowned cloth manufacturers, Liv supplied them with designs to print on t-shirts and other clothing items. Her favourite part was when she was hired to design a merch, she said it was so refreshing designing merch prints for various fandoms because people connected to those, they loved wearing something which resembled their icons, or their favourite show/movie or whatever.

She had once designed a deadpool t-shirt for me and I absolutely loved it, it was the best gift I had ever received. Oh wait no, best gift was Liv herself, I smiled to the thought and called a taxi for May's home.

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Something was wrong. Not wrong wrong, it was wrong in a mischievous way, the look on Harry's and May's face was trouble for me for sure. It was getting really annoying now, they wanted to say something but weren't instead were giggling and passing glances to each other.

I decided to ignore them and paid attention to the John wick sequel we were watching while sipping on my cola drink. Thats when May blurted out.

"So James, how is your ex boyfriend these days?"

I nearly chocked on my drink upon hearing her and looked at her wide eyed, both Harry and May broke out laughing at my expression. I put on drink aside.

"How do you about Charlie?"
"Ooooh so his name's Charlie."

I gave them a confused look and May explained how Liv denied to tell her anything aside from the fact that I was bisexual. I was never secretive about my sexuality, it just never came up.

How could it? Who would talk about sexuality of their niece's boyfriend ?

But now it was out somehow, I wasn't sad about it, I was just embarrassed to talk about Charlie to them. They must have seen the embarrassment on my face because they kept on laugh and making fun of how my face was turning into a tomato.

They were both enjoying it the fullest and obviously weren't letting this go at any cost. So I gave in and started telling them all about it.

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*flashback*

It was when we were still living with my uncle. Charlie was a boy at my school who also happened to live on the block as me. He was gay, and somehow the bullies at school found out about it.

Our school was open about sexualities and supported LGBTQ but that didn't stop those assholes. They used to pick up on him not physically but verbally. It was friendly teasing accompanied by name calling, it seemed harmless to others but was impacting Charlie mentally. He started hiding his sexuality slowly and avoiding people.

I was in the basketball team at that time because my uncle wanted me to The Man, he was a complete homophobe and it disgusted me. My mother knew about my sexuality and told me not to tell my uncle as he would do something unspeakable to me.

She told me about that one time his own sister got really drunk and kissed a girl when he found out about him, he hit her so bad. He fucking hit a girl, and not just any girl his own baby sister just because she had kissed a girl. So no one other than my mother believed me to be straight as an arrow.

I was quite famous in school as I was in the team but I rarely interacted with anyone. Charlie caught my eye one day, somehow we started hanging out, we used to walk to and from school together. We had lunch together. He used to come to my house frequently and hang out. We became quite good friends and I told him about me being bisexual.

One day on our walk home he kissed me, I kissed him back instantly. That was how me and Charlie got together.

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*now*

May and Harry were listening to me as a little child does to their granny telling them takes of fairies. They looked at me in awe and their expressions were soft. I smiled slightly at them.

This was the second time I had talked about Charlie out loud, first being Liv obviously. Then May asked me why did me and Charlie which made my smile disappear and my head hung low.

May started apologising and said it was okay, I didn't have to talk about it. But I gathered courage and started telling them because it was my past, I needed to talk about it, I needed to move forward and not be haunted by it.

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*flashback*

Charlie and I were very cautious when it came to my uncle, he knew about his abusive nature. Only he knew about it actually. Charlie and I used to get in arguments about it, he was reluctant that I should tell my mother about my uncle but I didn't want to.

I couldn't. She was already working so hard for me and Hazel, I couldn't burden her with not having a roof above us.

One weekend my uncle was away for work and my mother knowing about our relationship took this opportunity and invited Charlie over for night stay.

We were really happy and excited about it. Also we would finally act as a couple in the house. We could hold hands, sit real close and all the other stuff. It was late at night my mother and Hazel were asleep and me and Charlie were watching Batman begins while cuddling on the sofa.

But alas, our happiness wasn't everlasting. He hadn't noticed the opening of the door.

My uncle was home early he saw us.

He saw me and Charlie.

We were completely horrified.

He was walking towards us in complete anger. I told Charlie to run, he somehow managed to get away as my uncle grabbed me from my collar.

From the corner of my eye I saw Charlie walking in the hall again with my mother at his side. My uncle hit me real hard on face and my mother screamed at him to put me down.

He roared at her, abouthow could she defend me. Before my mother could utter another word, I blurted out, "she didn't know anything about this. I had tricked her into believing me and Charlie were just friends and wanted to stay over to study."

His eyes shifted back to while he ordered Charlie to get out of his eyes. Charlie hesitated leaving me there with me but my mother told him assured him to go and that she would look after me.

As soon as charlie walked out crying. My uncle dragged to his room, my mother was following us crying and begging him to leave me alone but he didn't budge when she grabbed his hand to let me go.

He jerked her away and slapped her with his other free hand. I screamed at him to leave her alone, "I was the one who deserved the punishment not her."

He glanced at her and threw me his room, entered it and locked the door. He hit me continuously and asked me to beg him to forgive me and pleasure him, when I denied he forced me to pleasure him and when he was satisfied he hit me again until I lied there unconscious.

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*now*

I looked up and found May crying, she hugged me really tight I hugged her back and buried my head in her shoulders. Before I knew it, I was sobbing. She didn't let go off me. She sat there like that for 10 minutes.

I let go of her and glanced at Harry, he was trying to do something to make this better.

I let out a sigh and looked at May who was wiping off her tears.

"So, what about more popcorn now?"

Harry and May looked at me and the silence broke into laughter. Harry smiled at me and I nodded at him assuring him that I was okay.