(no smuth)
It's a few months later
(El came over to Max)
El POV
I decide to goggele 'bisexuell' again since I just want to know.
'Bisexuell means being atracted to more then one gender. However you could have preferences. What many people don't know is: Bi is a spectrum. In the bi spectrum are: Bisexuell being atracted to more then one gender, pansexuell being atracted to all genders without preferences, omnisexuell being atracted to all genders with preferences and polysexuell being atracted to more then one gender but not all. But don't mix up polysexuell and Polyamorous these are two different labels.'
Underneath stands:
'What is polyamorous?'
How do I find out I'm bi?
I click on the 2nd question.
How do I find out I'm bi?
It depents on the person but if you find your self to be atracted to the same and opposite sex you might be bisexuell.
Well yeah that dosen't help. I already knew I like girls and boys and that I'm on the bi spectrum but I don't know where exactly I'm on the bi spectrum. God this is so frustrating!
I sigh and Max comes up to me. „What's wrong?" She asks. „I- I'm just so confused and- I dunno, it's just frustrating." I answer. „Yeah but you don't need to know right away." Max says. „I know, just... I want to know for my self." I try to explain. „I understand," Max says, „mabey I can help you?" „Try." I say.
„Well dose the lable 'bi' feel like it fits?" She then asks. „Yeah I guess." I respond. „Well, do you prefer a gender?" She continues asking. I think a while and then say: „Yeah, girls." „Ok, so you're not pan." Max concludes. „Do you feel like you are atracted to all genders?" She asks. „Not really." I admit. „So not omni either." She says,more to her self.
„Well, this is only my opinion but it seems like you're either bi or polysexuell. Tough, you kind of need to know for your self." She says. „Yeah, thanks anyways." I say. It still helped. At least now there are only two sexualtys I need to question. Well kind of.
El goes home.
A few hours of crisis later.
I'm lying in my bed. I let out a loud sigh befor saying to myself: „I'm bisexuell." That sentince means a lot to me. I had a sexualty crisis for a long time but now I've figured it out. I smile to my self and then Grab my phone. „Hi Max!" I say into the speaker. „Hi! What's up?" She asks. My grin widens as I say:„I know what my sexualty is, I'm bi." I wait for Max to answer. She then says, with a smile in her tone: „Wow, I'm glad you figured it out! Am I the first one you told?" „Of course you are!" I say.
We talk for a while and then we hang up since it's late. I go to bed smiling.
To be continued...
Notes:
The chapter speaks for it self
Have a good day/night ❤️
