Free falling

Let It Burn

Ch 12

Xavier's POV

I'm in love. The moment I seen her I knew she was the one. I've never been more grateful for CarrieAnn begging me to go on her ice cream run for her or I would never have met her. My angel that carries the weight of the world on her shoulders. A weight I wish she would let me take care of. She's moving in with me whether she knows it or not, but she's mine. I plan to give her the world.

The trouble is my little spitfire won't let me. She has these walls around her that I was starting to believe would be impossible to get pass but holding her here now in my arms shows me I'm doing something right.

My girl doesn't know what it's like to be cared for but I'll show her. Her and Jamie. They both been through something that I don't even want to think about but she gives clues. My girl flinches every time she's touched and barely lets Jamie out of her sight unless she has to.

I'm putting pieces together but for my own sanity I had to stop. The rage that I feel every time I think of the possibility that someone hurt my girl makes me want to set the world on fire. And I would gladly watch this world go up in flames to make her smile.

Kami

I've finally calmed down but I don't want to move yet. For one I'm comfortable and two I'm embarrassed. Xavier's not stupid. I know he put it together that Jamie and I sometimes struggled for meals. That's a conversation I'm not ready to have. Then he's just going to insist that I move in with him.
I don't want to but I can see now that this may be our best option. Jamie doesn't deserve to struggle through life because of my pride. He deserves better than that. More than I can give him anyway.
I hesitantly move away but keep my head lowered so I don't have to look him in the eye. Not that hard since the man is a sky scraper and I only reach his chest.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cry all over you" I try to clean my face as much as possible without looking at him. He grips my chin and pulls my face up to meet his eyes as he bends down.

"Esta bien Princesa. I just want to help you. Let me help you. Both of you". I bite my lip as I think of all the reasons why I shouldn't accept his offer and why I should. I nod shyly because when it comes down to it, I'll do anything to keep Jamie safe and happy.

"Ok". He shoots me an award winning smile and quickly kisses my forehead. It was so quick that I would've thought it hadn't happened if he didn't lean back in and do it again.

"Gracias Kamilla, you have made me a very happy man. I will make sure you both have everything you need."

"This is only temporary, just until I can get back on my feet and figure out my next move." I quickly say. I see his eyes tighten but he keeps the smile in place. Like he doesn't want me to leave. No. I can't think like that. The last time I trusted a man it didn't end well for me. I refuse to give myself any false hopes.

"Why don't you and Jamie come and visit tomorrow and have a look around. If you see anything that needs to be changed just let me know and it will be taken care of".

"Oh I'm sure it will be fine. We just need a place to rest our heads for a few days until I figure something out." He stares at me before nodding.

"Be that as it may, I want you and your brother comfortable in your new home. If you see any adjustments that need to be made then let me know, I'll happily see to it".

I give him a stiff nod. I'm unsure how to take his insistent chivalrous behavior and don't know what to make of it. I have to remember I'm doing this for Jamie. Jamie's needs come before my own. Speaking of which. I really need to go check on him.

"Umm thank you. I'll figure out a way to pay you back." I pull back away from duck my head down to the blankets that fell on the floor in my haste to get up. Suddenly finding the sheets very interesting.

He chuckles and pulls me back towards him. "We can discuss that later but for now don't worry about it." I go to protest but he just squeezes me tighter and whispers a "please". I give a reluctant nod before removing myself from him and awkwardly straighten my clothes before mumbling an excuse to go check on Jamie and hastily walk out of the room.

Once the door is closed, I lean against it and take a moment to catch my breath before continuing on my hunt to find my baby brother and friend. I can't help but smile when I see them. They're both still watching movies in the fort sharing a bowl of popcorn. Carrie is such a big kid at heart. I can't tell who's having more fun. Her or Jamie.
I continue to watch the two and can't think of the last time I seen him so happy. I can feel the negative thoughts start to cloud my mind before I shake it off. Now is not the time for a pity party. I can do that later. Right now I need to make a plan and figure out my next move.