Soukoku Oneshots

Angst+Fluff

Dazai went into the bathroom and didn't come out for almost two hours.Chuuya went over to him to see what the problem is.Dazai was cutting himself,and when Chuuya entered but Dazai didn't see him.
-DAZAI!
He stopped immediately as soon as he heard Chuuya's voice, his face now covered with blood from his cuts.
-I-i'm sorry... I just got so lonely..."
Chuuya comes closer to him,Dazai slowly backs away from Chuuya while looking at him scared.
-W-what are you doing?
Chuuya comes more closer to him,Dazai's eyes widen as he sees how close Chuuya's getting to him, his breathing starting to become heavier.
-... p-please don't.
-Don't what?
Dazai's voice is shaky as he looks down at his hands that were holding a knife.
-Put the knife down.
He shakes his head no as tears start to fall from his eyes.
-... I can't...
Chuuya raises his hand to him,he flinches as he does this, his body trembling slightly as he tries to move back but fails due to his fear of being touched by someone like you,and he puts his hand on Dazai's cheek.As soon as Chuuya touches his cheek he lets out a small scream before freezing up completely, his heart beating faster than ever before as his mind goes blank.
-Love...
He doesn't respond to Chuuya, his entire world being reduced to nothing but pain and despair, he could only stare into space with his teary eyes.Chuuya grabs his hands,Chuuya sees Dazai's arms are shaking violently as they try to pull away from him, his fingers digging into the ground trying to hold onto something solid.
-Shhhh
His lips quiver as he starts crying loudly again, his voice cracking as he begs Chuuya not to hurt him.Chuuya starts to clean Dazai's cuts.He shivers as Chuuya touches his wounds, his entire body tensing up as if in shock. He closes his eyes tightly as Chuuya cleans them off, letting out a soft whimper when Chuuya remove the last piece of gauze.
-Shhhh,it's okay angel...
His entire body trembles as he keeps quiet, his breathing becoming shallow as he waits for Chuuya's next action,but Chuuya bandaged his cuts.He's still looking down at the floor as he feels the bandages wrap around his skin, his face now feeling warm and comfortable thanks to it.Chuuya grabs his chin,his eyes snap open as Chuuya takes his chin in his hand, his mouth opening wide as he looks up at Chuuya, his expression filled with confusion and fear,but Chuuya starts to rub Dazai's cheek gently.Chuuya's actions seem to be calming him down, his tears stopping as he begins to calm down, his eyes no longer red or swollen. His breathing slowly becomes steady as well, though his chest is still moving up and down quickly due to how scared he was earlier,his lips quiver once more as he continues to cry silently, his body trembling slightly as he tries to regain control over his emotions. He looks back at Chuuya with a pleading look on his face,and Chuuya picks him up.He lets out an audible gasp as Chuuya picks him up, his legs kicking slightly before going limp as Chuuya carrys him like a baby. Chuuya can feel his heart beating rapidly through his chest as he clings into Chuuya for dear life.
-You are my baby.
Chuuya can see that this statement has really struck a chord within him, his eyes widening as he stares at him, his arms wrapping around his neck as he holds on tight,Chuuya kisses his forehead.As soon as Chuuya kisses his forehead, his entire body freezes, his face turning bright red as he struggles to comprehend what just happened. The only thing Chuuya could hear from him was a small squeak escaping his lips as he held onto Chuuya even tighter than before.
-You are so adorable, baby.
It seems like this has been enough to make him break down completely, his crying becoming loud and........ uncontrollable as he buried his head into Chuuya's shoulder. His hands gripped tightly around Chuuya as he clung to him desperately.Chuuya rubs Dazai's back gently,the warmth of Chuuya touch calms him down, his sobbing gradually slowing down as he leans against Chuuya. His whole body trembles as he clings to Chuuya, his breath coming in short bursts as he struggles to catch his breath. His face turns redder by the second as he hides his face in Chuuya's chest.
-Shhh
His voice cracks as he speaks again, his breathing starting to become labored as he clings into Chuuya even harder. His eyes remain closed as he keeps quiet, not wanting to ruin the moment,and Chuuya kisses Dazai's neck gently.A soft moan escapes his lips as he feels Chuuya's lips press against his skin, his whole body shaking as he wraps his arms around Chuuya's shoulders. A few tears still trickle down his cheeks as he buries his face into Chuuya's shoulder, trying to hide away from reality as much as possible.
-It's okay now, angel.
Chuuya's words seem to have had some sort of effect on him, his grip loosening slightly as he pulls away from him. He looks up at Chuuya with watery eyes as he tries to compose himself, his hand reaching up to wipe away the remaining tears from his face,Chuuya rubs Dazai's cheek gently.He lets out another weak smile as he closes his eyes, leaning his head against Chuuya's chest once more. Chuuya presence is comforting for him, having someone there that cares about him regardless of how many times he cuts himself.
-You are only mine.
Chuuya can tell that it really means something to him when he says those words, his heart fluttering as he holds onto Chuuya tightly. Even though he's still clinging into Chuuya, he opens his eyes slowly, looking at Chuuya lovingly.
-You are so adorable,my baby.
It takes all of his strength not to burst into tears right then and there. Hearing Chuuya call him "baby" was enough to make him cry, even without the fact that Chuuya were holding him so tight. His entire being felt warm and fuzzy in Chuuya's arms, and he couldn't help but enjoy this.
-My little one...
Chuuya kisses his cheeks gently.The softness of Chuuya's lips on his skin made him melt, causing him to let out a small whimper. It was obvious just how much he loved this attention, and despite the pain that he had been through, he wanted nothing more than to stay here forever,Chuuya grabs Dazai's hand,he doesn't resist, instead wrapping his fingers around Chuuya's tightly as he closes his eyes and relaxes into Chuuya's touch. He feels safe and secure in Chuuya's arms, knowing that no matter what happens, he has someone who will always be by his side.Chuuya kisses Dazai's fingers,he lets out a soft moan as Chuuya kisses his fingers, his body starting to shake slightly from Chuuya's touch. He knew it wasn't fair to expect anything less from Chuuya, since Chuuya is clearly very gentle and caring. All he could do is hope that Chuuya would continue to show him these things for years.
-My little one~
Chuuya's words caused his heart to skip a beat, making him blush bright red. Despite everything he had gone through, hearing those sweet words still managed to send him into an emotional tailspin. Even though he didn't want to admit it, he loved hearing them. He squeezed Chuuya's hand tighter as he looked at him,Chuuya kisses Dazai's neck gently.As soon as Chuuya kissed his neck, Dazai immediately shivered from the sensation. He was surprised by how sensitive his neck was, but he also found it incredibly comforting. This must have been what love felt like. Everything about this situation seemed perfect, and he wished that this moment could last forever.Chuuya continues to kiss Dazai's neck,his breath hitched at every single kiss, causing him to shudder. The feeling of Chuuya's lips against his skin sent chills down his spine, and he could feel himself getting lost in the moment. Chuuya is such a good person.
-You are adorable, my baby.
He blushed even brighter when Chuuya called him "baby", which only made him smile wider. He never thought that anyone would ever call him cute or adorable, so he appreciated the compliment immensely. It was clear just how much Chuuya cared for him, and he couldn't help but think that.
-I love you more that anything in this world.
His face lit up once again, and he felt tears welling up in his eyes. He didn't know why, but hearing those words was enough to make him cry. Chuuya's affection meant more than anything else in the entire world. No matter what happened next, he knew that he wanted to spend the time with Chuuya,and Chuuya kisses Dazai's tears.As soon as Chuuya kissed his tears, they instantly turned into waterfalls of joy. He closed his eyes tightly as he tried to hold back the emotions that were building inside of him. His chest tightened with each passing second, until eventually, he broke down completely and began sobbing uncontrollably. His body shook violently.
-Shhhh
He took a deep breath before looking at Chuuya through teary eyes. He opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. All he could do was nod in response to Chuuya's request. Eventually, he stopped shaking and calmed down, allowing the floodgates to open and let loose everything that had built up, Chuuya kisses him.As soon as Chuuya kissed him, he froze in place. Every muscle in his body tensed up, and he held onto Chuuya desperately. A loud gasp escaped from his throat, followed by an audible sigh of relief. For some reason, you were able to calm him down without any difficulty whatsoever.
-Why did You cut yourself,baby?
His heart skipped a beat when Chuuya asked him that question. As if on cue, he started crying again. The idea of not being able to answer Chuuya's questions seemed almost too painful for him. He knew it wasn't something worth hiding, though. After all, there was nothing wrong with admitting when things got tough.
-Are You scared?
He nodded slowly. In truth, he was terrified. He knew exactly where this conversation was going, and despite knowing that there was nothing to be afraid of, he still found himself trembling with fear nonetheless.
-Y-yes...I am scared..
-Why?
Chuuya can tell Dazai is struggling to find the right words to say. It seems like every time he tries to start talking about his fears, he ends up stuttering or hesitating instead. This is probably because he doesn't want to admit just how much anxiety he feels.
-Because I'm scared of losing you..
-My angel...
Chuuya's words are enough to make him break down once more. Tears begin pouring from his eyes as he clings into Chuuya even tighter. He lets out a small whimper as he buries his face against Chuuya's shoulder, trying to hide his tears away from view.
-I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...
-My angel, don't apologize for crying.
He looks up at Chuuya, his eyes filled with water. His voice trembles as he speaks.
-Please...don't leave me...please...
Chuuya holds Dazai close to him,tears continue flowing from his eyes. He begins sobbing uncontrollably into Chuuya's chest now. His arms wrap around Chuuya tightly, holding into Chuuys for dear life. He has never felt so alone before in his entire life.
-Shhhh
Dazai continues crying loudly into Chuuya's chest. He starts shaking violently, his whole body shuddering uncontrollably. He cries harder than ever before, his shoulders rising and falling rapidly as he breathes heavily through his nose. His breathing becomes erratic as he cries louder than ever before. His tears seem endless.Chuuya starts to rub Dazai's back gently, Dazai's sobs become quieter as he rests his head on Chuuya chest. The only sounds in the room now are his heavy breaths and Chuuya's heartbeat. He closes his eyes, taking in Chuuya's comforting embrace. A few moments later, he finally calms down completely. As soon as he does, he pulls away from Chuuya.Chuuya puts his hand on Dazai's cheek,he turns his head towards Chuuya, looking deeply into Chuuya's eyes. He stares intently at Chuuya, searching for any signs that Chuuya might not really care about him anymore.Chuuya sees a hint of hope in Dazai's eyes as he waits patiently for his response. After a moment passes by without either of you saying anything.Chuuya kisses Dazai's lips gently,the sudden kiss catches him off guard. He freezes momentarily, unsure if this is what he wanted or not. However, after a moment's hesitation, he returns it with passion. Their tongues meet each other briefly before breaking apart again. He stares at Chuuya lovingly, waiting for Chuuya's next move.
-My angel,i will never leave you.
A smile appears on his face as he hears those words. He leans forward and gives Chuuya another passionate kiss, wrapping his arms around Chuuya's neck. This time however, he holds the kiss for longer, savoring every second of it. His heart races faster than ever before, his breath becoming ragged once more.
-Wanna cuddle in bed?
He nods slowly, still staring deep into Chuuya's eyes. He seems very happy that Chuuys asked him this question. His voice trembles slightly as he speaks, but it also sounds much more confident than usual.
-Yes...
Chuuys leys Dazai down,as soon as Chuuya layed him down on the bed, he wraps his arms around Chuuya tightly. His body feels warm against Chuuya's, like an electric current has just passed between them. His legs rest against Chuuya's, his feet touching the bottom of Chuuya's legs. He looks up at Chuuya with loving eyes, wanting nothing more,Chuuya holds Dazai close to him.Dazai breathing becomes heavier as he lays there. His arms wrap tighter around Chuuya, pulling Chuuya closer. Their bodies press together closely, almost like they were made for eachother. His heart beats even faster now, his whole being focused solely on Chuuya.
-Good night,my baby.
-Good night.
Dazai smiles widely at Chuuya as he closes his eyes. The room grows darker as he falls asleep. A soft snore escapes from his mouth as he rests peacefully. His grip tightens around Chuuya, as though he was afraid of letting go.

_________________________________________Yes,i see Dazai every clingy.