𝐌𝐚 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 - 𝕾𝖚𝖌𝖆𝖗𝖍𝖎𝖑𝖑𝖉𝖉𝖔𝖙

18- the big question

dd came and sat next to us.
"yo get the fuck up. u pussy?" he said knelt beside us.
"we can put a bandaid on that shi."
darrian stared daggers at him.
"fuck outta here nigga." he said reaching for my hand. i sat up and slipped my hand into his.
"i shoulda had not came back here." my voice shook remorsefully.
darrian looked at me puzzled before pulling out his phone calling someone.
i pulled out my own and texted caesar .

CR

please come get me mann.

wya ? what i told u bout goin out at night mh?

i'm srs right caesar come get me.

i'm coming mh.

i sent him my location. and i slumped back into darrians arms. darrian hanged up the phone, bringin all his attention back to me.
"cmonn we needa leave mh." he said wrapping his arms around me.
"hell no no way. u see all these cops around." dd said.
darrian opened his mouth to say sum back but i spoke b4 him.
"he righ. we finna have to wait."
"they ain't goin nowhere." dd looked down.
"dd duck." i warned him.
all three of us watched darrians mom leave the house officers left, right and centre. then the two men in two stretchers. the sun was beginning to rise.
"yo.." my eyes blurred w tears when realisation sank in. "we can never get caught you understand." i began shake w anger.
"we have to.. to.. never..i" my sentence trailed off.
"RK." ddot blinked at me. "calm down."
my eyes danced w panic.
"Kay?" he searched my eyes. "calm down."
"RK." he repeated.
"RK!!" he shouted.

my eyes flew open. "darrian." my pulse slowly regulated itself.
"darrian." i saïd tryna get up.
"no mami lay down.." concern mounting his face.
he lay beside me but his face was suspended over mine.
"i heard u talking. u alright my heart?"he asked rubbing my stomach.
i blinked. i felt the dry tears in the crinkles of my squinting eyes.
"whatever u were dreaming about.." he started.
i used my free hand to feel for any open wounds. normal.
it was a dream.
"it felt so real." i whispered.
i rolled over and let out a huge sigh.  darrian drew big letters on my back w his fingers.
"what's happened?" he asked innocently.

i hesitated before i told him. i included every detail every minor indifference and when i stopped talking. i searched his eyes for a reaction. he had maintained a solemn look on his face. but now that i ws really paying  attention. i could see the corners of his mouth perked up. "hey-" i started an outburst , "he cupped my face and placed a rough kiss on me. then he hugged me and hurried his face in my back. he started shaking w now audible laughter.
"ohh nahh get the fuck off me." i pushed him. i knew he would find it funny. i turned my back to him. and i heard him pick up his controller and place his headphones back over his ears.

i unplugged my phone from his charger and left for the bathroom. i felt him lookin at me as i grabbed his towel from his dresser and slammed the door behind me. i played some 90s type music to wash away the bad feelings that strung in my chest. i turned the water on and waited for it to warm up. i looked in the mirror tied my hair back and washed my tired face. i brushed my teeth w a spare toothbrush n cleaned his mirror while i was at it.

"have you ever loved someone so much you thought you'd die." i sang letting the hot water run down my back.
"giving so much of yaself. it seems the only way." i heard a second voice say.
i smiled inwardly. i didn't even hear the door open.
"tell me what u want and i. n i will give it to you."we sang together.
"cuz you are.." i sang solo.
"my loveeee." his hands caressed my shoulders.
i turned around to see darrian fully dressed in the shower behind me.
i didn't flinch i didn't question it. jus went along w it
"do you ever dream offfff," i whispered through my smile, embracing his touch.
...

after my shower. darrian took his own. i played songs and while we were both vibing, i got dressed, brushed my hair, did my skin care, n cleaned his bathroom.
"homecoming" by lil uzi vert started playing. n while i silently twerked in the mirror oblivious to the fact that they water had turned off darrian had stepped out n was watching.
"one girl from philly. i think her name nicki and i fw nicki cuh she not too picky." i threw it in a circle.
"n she not too choosy, but sometimes she boujie." he came up behind me. "i play w her kitty until it get sticky."
"i'm movin the bih" he thrusted into me almsot knocking the wind outta me.
"alright naw u wildin." i stood up straight n 180• 'd my head to mug him.
"yo watch out-" he said i sensed movement and i ducked the nigga had tried sneak me. i turned around and swung at him. he caught my arm and threw it over his shoulder lifting me up. my mouth fell open n a series of jumbled sounds toppled out. he opened the door and walked into his room throwing me on the bed.

he jumped ontop of me and began placing soft kisses on my face down to my neck and even down to my breasts. disoriented on impact of landing on the back of my head i just let him. he trailed all the way back up to my mouth where he talked over my lips. "me and dd got a show."
"when?" I asked.
"in 2 days" he responded.
I looked deeply into his eyes. I nodded "okay."
"I want you to come with me" he looked me dead in the face I had never seen him so serious, I took a breath.
I smiled and silently agreed
"Will you come with me?"

I took a moment before responding.
Yes.