𝐌𝐚 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 - 𝕾𝖚𝖌𝖆𝖗𝖍𝖎𝖑𝖑𝖉𝖉𝖔𝖙

11-

when i got back into the car i found bri and n holding hands. "where buba at?" i asked a lil more aggressively than meaning to.
"he cryin somewhere." n replied lookin at me through the fron mirror.
"no fr" i said
"yeah he gone . weon kno." brii added.
"he need to hurry up and take me out this hood."
"yeah and go back to ur dirty one. the bronx a dirty ass place." i looked back and realised this weren't where i ws sat b4.
"what yall ws doin in the back seat?🤨" i questioned. "yall alone aswell."
"we js talkin weren't even doin nun" bri explained. "he too much of a gentleman."
i snorted.
"then why yall in the backseat."
"we wanted to be close." n elaborated.
"u were already close enough in the front . nigga i tell yo mom what u is doin." i threatened.
"tell her then what she gon do ?" he challenged me.
"whoop u like she did last time ." i laughed reminiscing. "in front of ur friends and your old neighbours too. fun times."

"stfu." he said gettin defensive. i smiled and looked out the window to the highway that cars were pullin into.
"buba need to hurry up and come back and take u home fr tho. u not home boi u in the hill. this not safe place for u" i stated asamatteroffactly .
"bri u coming or staying ."
"i'm coming."
"bye shawty." he kissed bris hand and trailed the kiss all the way down to the tips of her nails .
"ew ." i got out the car and closed the door.
i saw buba walkin down the empty street w a bottle of water in his hand.
"where u went?" i asked.
"where tf it look like i went." he said shakin the waterbottle.
"don't get rude . watch y'a mouth."
buba ignored me and got into the car. Ndot rolled down the windows and i flipped them both off while walkin back down to dd and darrian in the grass area.
"so how was it?" i asked.
"it ws amazing . bri why uain set me up w him b4."she said still struck.
"first of all bc he's basically my brother and that would be so weird cmon now. that's like me dating ur bro- " i cutoff mid sentence.
darrian was staring into my soul w cold eyes.  "mb bae. ian mean it i ws js givin an example."
he stared still.
"ok no more boy talk ." i said finally .
"tell me the deets otp." i whispered.
"yooo"
"okay. sorry." i stopped. "comeon ."
"cmon where?" asked dd.
"to get food. i'm hungry." i yawned.
"awh go by yoself pussy. why we gotta come witchu."dd said irritated.
"because i'm a female and i sorta value my life so it wldnt be convient for me to be wandering the streets of harlem by myself" i shot.

"noted." dd said his expression hard.
darrian stood up and walked behind me to the nearest fast food restaurant.
when we got in the line weren't long so i ordered my food and ws sat w them at a table, waiting.

i sat on darrians lap w one of his hands very obviously in my small shirt, lightly playin w my nipple piercing and the other in my pants. he weren't necessarily doing anything down there, his hand jus rested on my lower stomach . dd and bri sat embarrassed either side of us head buried in they phones.
"R. Kelly" someone's voice called out. Bri and dd roared w laughter . i got up stiffly ignoring the turned heads of ppl .
"RK" i corrected.
i went up to the counter and snatched my bag off the counter and carried it back to the table.
"dickhead🌚" i said flipping the person off.
"wys r.kelly?" dd asked still shakin w laughter.
"if u don't stfu." i blanked him.
i opened my bag up and pulled out my food and lay some on the table for bri and whoever else wanted it.
then i got my fries infront of me and ate them silently.
then i felt someone shadow over me. i looked at the feet first and then their face. "can i help you?" i asked .
"yes. aint u ddots girl?" she asked like she already knew the answer.
"he right here, ain't he? ask him" i said abit rudely. "you straight up talkin like he ain't here."
i ws tryna eat and this girl ws js talkin to me so i weren't feelin that.
i picked my drink up and stood to go get a napkin from the front table and this hoe knocked it out my hands. this obviously aroused some nosy ass ppl interest. i looked at my nails and thought for a sec . if i hadn't had my nails done js today. ehh. when have i ever cared?she watched intently at my momentarily nonchalant reaction before receiving a blow which resulted her hands flying to her face .

"bitch." i said turning around and walking back to bri but something ws wrong it ws too fucking quiet. i ducked. this bitch had tried sneak me . i turned around and swung at the side of her head. "what's ur fucking problem?"
bri came instinctively stood up while the girl try swing back missed me a couple times . then she just jumped on me. i fell back fist into the floor. my head was inches from the floor my heart beat rapidly at the thought of my skull  almost smashed into the floor. i blinked back my tears of pain. bri boxed the girl in the back of the head while she threw punches at me . i grabbed her by the neck while i flipped us ovr so i ws on top how i always liked it . her nails resurfaced aiming for my fucking face . i felt them slice my eyebrow open.
i punched this hoe in the throat . in the nose and between her fucking eyes all while bri stamped her tf out .a whole crowd had formed by now all watching us . this had obviously sparked the security attention. great. darrian emerged from the crowd and tried pull me off her before security did. he managed to lift me off the floor. "baby stop. security coming ." darrian almost shouted at me.
"alrightt." i looked at the bleeding girl on the floor.
oops . i didn't mean to cause that much damage . but she started it . she got the reaction she wanted . i could see all the phones on me rn . but i didnt gaf abt ppl recording me . darrian grabbed me by my waist and pulled me away from all the ppl. dd grabbed put food off the counter and went out the door . bri followed suit. outside i burst into hysterical tears.

"i literally can't go anywhere w/o someone provoking me . i don't wanna hurt ppl but they js make me mad so so mad." i cried loudly.
"i knoww baby. im so sorry i couldn't get to u in time ."darrian said hugging me tightly.
"the ppl wsnt lettin us through." dd complained. "i ws tryna see some action." i stopped and stared at him for a second before swing for him.
"awh nah ddot she wildin." dd screamed running.
"pussy." i shouted after him.
darrian smirked at turnt me around to face him again.
"D?" i mustered up a breath.
"yes mami?" he said softly. he ws being so careful as he had never seen me this vulnerable before .
"i don't want it to be this way anymore." i said unable to look him in the eyes.
"mami ik there's ppl against us but that shouldn't influence our decisions . it's about us not about them." he panicked.
" i know but i don't wanna have to go through this cmon now . we both know what ur female fandom like this, this ain't gon be the last time ddot." his expression hardened .
"Rk stop playing w me. you know i dont play bout that."he started gettin mad. he let me go.
"so what u tryna say?" he asked inching away from me.
"that maybe we should take a break."
"so you're breaking up w me?" he asked pointedly.
"noo a break from eachother. we're not officially single but not officially taken." i sniffed.
"that's- you're literally breaking up w me and tryna make it sound nice." his tone rising. "you wanna jeopardise our whole relationship over one unrelated female."
"if i did i wld have no self respect. i'm not stayin where i don't feel safe." i stated.
"you don't feel safe w me?" his voice cracked while he spoke.
"it's not u i don't feel safe about ." i whispered " it's the fans. ur fans they too crazy and ur not even doing anything about it."
"it's not like i can. u expect to be able to control everyone . i'm not God i cant do that." he said .
"well then . how do u expect me to be able stay w u." i said swiping blood that i consciously felt dropping down my face.
"mami we can make it work."
"we can make me almost getting jumped work??" i asked. "are you fucking serious?"
"it won't happen again" he suggested.
"u can't guarantee thatt." i answered back. "as u said yourself, you can't control everyone."
i walked over to bri and she stood up and immediately walked me home. he didn't try stop me . he js let me go.