A Grey Tower

Ch 6

     I'm still in bed with Alvar, tucked in tight next to him. I wiggle trying to get some distance between us as I can feel myself start to lose control over my body. He nestles his face into my hair and holds me tighter. I'm straining to breath. My attraction is instantly turned into fear as I start to seriously struggle.
     My breath rasps and my body is tense as he slowly crushes me. He starts getting hard. I can feel everything his body is doing. His dick getting hard, his blood pumping, and his ragged breathing as he pulls me in tight. I'm scared that I might pass out and die. The adrenaline is pumping through my veins.
     He lets my go and rolls away from me. I gasp and hold my sore ribs, rolling away from him to the edge of the bed. He's still staring at me sitting hunched over the bed.
     "I'm sorry," his voice is is husky and breaks a little. "The smell of your fear, the fact you can't do anything about it."
     At his words I get more scared. I sit at the opposite side of the bed holding my chest. His shirt is too big for me so I have to adjust the shoulder. He just sits and stares at me, I stare back. Where there was once a small measure of attraction for him there's nothing but fear now. I'm truly scared of Alvar. My arms are shaking along with my legs. I curl into a ball with my back to the head board.
     "I'm sorry," he says again.
     "It's okay," I blurt out. I don't want to upset him so I shakily crawl back under the covers, still facing him. The bed shifts moving me closer as he moves in beside me. His warmth radiates to me and seeing how he turned the temperature down earlier I hesitate to move closer to him but I eventually touch my chest to his shoulder. He glances down at me but doesn't move. He sighs and turns fully towards me.
     "I can keep you warm," he says as he moves closer. I try not to tense as once again his arms are around me.
     I doze on and off for the first few hours before falling asleep. But every time Alvar moves or shifts I wake up. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep.
     When I wake up in the morning Alvar is still sleeping. My head is rested on his arm and his other hand lays on my belly. I glance up at him before slowly moving away. I'm able to sit up and get my feet on the ground when he moves. My head whips back but he's just rolled over. I keep listening to his deep breaths as I gather my things.
     My phone and shoes are in my hands when I get to the door. But then I remember the dress crumbled up at the base of the bed.
     Whatever I can get a new dress. I open the door and quietly close it behind me.
     The hallway has black carpet running down both ends and black panels of marble on the walls. I start towards the elevator, typing a quick text to Taryn, telling him to pick me up and bring clothes.
I end up waiting in the lobby sitting on one of the lounge couches the hotel has lying around. I keep checking my messages for a reply when Taryn walks up to me. I hadn't noticed him.
"Hey," I say whilst standing up.
"What happened to your dress?" He asks. I feel instantly ashamed. I just look down and don't answer him.
Taryn leads me out to the car and I'm thankful to be out of the horror hotel.
When we reach the hotel Taryn and his mother were staying at I'm thankful that I have my own room with my suitcase sitting on the bed. I hop in the shower scrubbing the nights events off of me. I change and I'm instantly comfortable now that I'm in my own clothes. I pack everything up in the suitcase enjoying the time to myself. My phone rings and I'm slow to answer.
"Hello?"
"Come down to the lobby we have to get going," it was Taryn. "We were supposed to be there yesterday but...we got caught up. Any way do you want a bagel, it's like the only thing I can find here that's edible for humans."
"Ok I'll be there in a little bit," I start heading into the bathroom to pack my toiletries. " and a bagel sounds nice, thank you Taryn."
I hang up the phone. I'm feeling more grateful about Taryn caring so much. After last night I realized I'm going to need every bit of his kindness if I'm going to keep sane. I'm still confused on why he randomly cut contact with me a few years ago but if things keep going on like this I'd be willing to get over it. And I needed to stop seeing him as a threat to me if I wanted this to work.
As we're in the car I devour the bagel. I lick the cream cheese off my fingers and Taryn laughs. I almost glare at him but remember my promise to myself, instead I find the humor of it and smile at him.
     We sit in silence for a bit before Taryn starts talking. "Do you remember the tire swing at the pond?"
     I instantly start laughing remembering what happened there. "I remember slipping and falling down the rock steps. I also remember you had your first kiss there."
     "I remember when you fell, there was blood everywhere," his tone gets playful as he says. "But I didn't have my first kiss there I told you she lied."
     The tire swing was at Taryns childhood home in the woods. There was a pond we used to jump in off the swing. When my family would go there during the summer holidays me and Taryn would go to that pond every single day. The neighbor girl had a crush on Taryn so we would play with her at the pond. The day before my parents took me home. We had gone out to the pond hoping for one last happy day before we were separated. I had swung on the swing but slipped and fell face first into the stone stairs that allowed us to get high enough to get on the swing. I'd hit my head causing blood to smear on the steps all the way down and on my ribs, the stone had cut through the shirt and my skin. I bled a lot. I don't really remember what happened after that but we had left the day after.
     "Do you remember when that fish suctioned onto my toe," I said smiling, remembering the horror that had struck both of us when I'd pulled my foot out of the water. "Or that little tabby cat?"
     "I remember you screaming because of that fish," Taryn says. He's actually beaming at me. "I'm glad we're getting closer to that friendship we once had."
     My smile fades a little. I don't want to ask him why he just quit talking to me because I don't want us to fight. I just smile and nod.