18 March 2023
Dear Future Husband,
Greetings. I hope this letter finds you well. (My two days of research taught me that this is the proper way of beginning a letter and I've absolutely no idea how I'm going to take this letter further yet here we go). Now, onto the more interesting and less formal matters! My name is Hoorain Wahab(hopefully you know this already) but you may call me Hoorain or Wahab (though not hoor!)
Just to be clear, I'm writing this because I like the idea of my husband getting to know, how his wife's 18 year old self wanted her life to be in her late 20s when she is happily married to a man who not only loves her, but has got his shit together. I'm finding this quality in a man much rarer than I anticipated.
(PS : I'm not 18 yet, I'll turn 18 on May 31st this year , formally it's June 1st but I'd very much appreciate it if you consider May 31st as my birthday, I like the idea of being born in may).
I hope you're as excited to read this very first love letter of mine as I am while writing it. If I'm not morbidly embarrassed by these letters in six or eight or ten years or whenever we end up together, I'll get you read them.
Why am I writing this? Reminds me of something I read long back
'Lately I've been thinking about whom I want to love, and how I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be...and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody's hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I'll keep it safe.'
How can I describe my life to you?
I read somewhere that, 'Letter writing is one of the fundamental pillars of being a fine lady,' but ive no idea how to proceed my letter further, I got a shit ton of things to write I just dont know in what order to, tbh I have never got fit into any 'fine lady' criteria, be it in beauty standards or communication. I hope you already know this about me but you must also know that I'm trying to work on all these
fine lady stuff, I may look like I dont care, but I do care about everything.
Now coming back to my academic side of life as you'd have calculated by now, I finished my AISSCE examination two days ago and they went okayish, They could've gone better if I had a little more efficient brain but whatever it is, atleast it's over. (I hope your AISSCE examinations went better than mine if you ever wrote that). Rn I'm preparing for various competitive examinations like NEET, JEE, EAPCET. ( Those absolutely unnecessary examinations which gets to decide my future). My parents have also said that they won't go easy on me if my boards result doesn't be appreciative.
Do your parents too say these kind of stuff? I hope not.
Let me introduce you to my parents first, My father I'm not sure whether or not I can call him a successful man but if there is one thing I'm sure about, it is that he's a caring father and a loving husband, he loves us a lot a lot, I mean it when I say a lot twice, he loves us no matter what. I hope you'll have this quality of my father because growing up in an environment where your parents share a romantic bond I can't imagine how marriage without love would be; there are very high chances that I'll end up getting arranged marriage to you but this shouldn't refrain us from falling in love, I understand it's hard to fall for someone whom you haven't known half of your life but trust me I love you even before I know you.
Every daughter wants her husband to be how her father is to her mother, just like how every guy sees their mother in their wives well I'm not very sure about the latter one but I do hope your parents are as loving to you as my parents are to me. And whatever they say whether harsh or soft is just for me to have a better future, Why do humans worry a lot about f u t u r e? Probably because they hope things to get better sooner or later or because we humans like to stay delusional.
Now coming to my mother, it's extremely saddening that I can never be as good as my mom in 'being a mom' and 'being a wife' roles. She's the best woman yk fr. Whatever I say in her honour is insignificant compared to her love for us let me not qoute everything now, she's a great speaker you'd love talking to her. I've two sisters, one elder and one younger both of them are two very innocent souls for this world and this explains my bossyness over them you can't blame me for how afraid they be of me, can you?
Pay attention, now there's something very important I'd like you to know i.e my spirituality is as fragile as my bones. I understand how important for a man is to get a wife who is spiritual and I'm not unaware of the fact that spirituality brings a positive impact on the well being of the family and I dont know whether saying this is enough or not but I assure you I'd not let my lack of faith effect your faith in any means. And I request you to keep everything I tell you only till you, I want you to be my secure place where I can drop my secrets and not a tv broadcast waiting for a spicy news. My lack of faith doesn't stop me from doing religious stuff I do it for the peace it brings, I hope you won't call me a hypocrite for this. And if you too are agnostic, then I'd very much appreciate but this doesn't give us the right to do blasphemy does it? I hope we'll be sincere enough to respect everyone's belief and not let this effect our relationship
