I miss her. I miss her so much, it actually physically hurts. I haven't talked to Fay in about 4 maddening weeks, now. And it's like I'm in withdrawal- needing something so badly, that I break out in sweat, knowing I can't have it. Have her.
I've been watching her everyday since then, to convince myself that she's safe. That she's okay. But she doesn't look okay. Fay looks as beautiful as ever, but there's a sadness in her eyes, that I believed gone years ago.
When I met her at the bar again, she didn't had this sadness in her eyes. She didn't look happy either, but she was...okay. And now that I've kind of returned back into her life, there's this sadness again. The sadness, that I had first seen, when I met her at the age of eight.
And I watched it fade with the time being. But it had returned, and even though she was the one to reject me, I believe, it was some kind of shield she's builded to protect herself- for not getting hurt again.
I would never purposely hurt Fay. But I did once- when I left her. That was thirteen years ago, but I know she never forgot. She blames me for leaving her alone. And I would be disappointed if she wouldn't blame me. Fay doesn't know the reason I left, but maybe it's time to change that. Maybe it's the only possibility to gain her trust back. And maybe the only way to fully deserve her heart.
Thirteen years ago
"Mason," my mother say's, she sounds so sad. I don't like seeing her like this- like something is eating her from the inside out. "sit down, please. We have to have a little talk." I look over to my dad. His hands are balled into fists, and he can't really meet my eyes. I furrow my brows in confusion at his reaction.
I sit down on the chair next to me. My mum walks to my side, and kneels down until our eyes are on the same height. "Mum, what is wrong?" I ask, when a tear leaves her eye. She takes my face in her hands and sighs. "Baby, you do know we are a very powerful family, right?" I don't know what her point with this question is, but I still nod my head in 'yes'.
She continues to so speak, "Your father has very powerful friends, too. And they need our help, now." my mother is looking at me, as if the next thing she's about to say, is very important for me to hear and understand. "Mason. If we don't help them, we'll get into trouble. But if we do help them, we would be the one in danger."
She must see the confusion in my eyes because she continues with a softer voice. "We need to leave, baby. We have to leave our old life behind, and start a completely new one." I suck in a sharp breath at her words. Because what the hell are these 'friends' , when we have to start a new life because of them?
"We need to leave this country, and I know this sounds confusing, baby. I know that's hard to understand. But you can't stay in contact with Fay anymore." I jump out of my chair hearing that. "No!" I shout. "I won't leave Fay! She's my best friend! I need her, and she needs me! We belong together, mum!" silent tears begin to fall from her eyes, and mine start to burn too.
I can't stop shaking my head. "Please." I whisper. "Please don't do this to me." my vision starts to blur from the tears that won't fall. My dad wraps his arms around my mother when she starts sobbing.
"Son." my father say's in a tone that demands no objection. "It wasn't an easy decision to make, but we've decided. We will leave. And we'll be gone in three days. So if you want to say your little girlfriend goodbye, you need to do it soon." the tears finally fall. My father continues to speak, "Fay isn't allowed to know any of this, Mason. If you tell her, not only us, but she is in danger too. So think carefully about your words. Because they could end lifes. Her life is in your hands, son. Don't make a mistake."
The memorie of that night still haunts me after all these years. I don't know if I'd made the right choice by leaving Fay behind. But what if I had told her why I had to leave? Would I have saved her a little pain? Would she have left with me? I can't answer these question. The only person who could, is Fay. The only human on earth, I could never hate. Even if it would have made my life a lot easier.
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THE IMPOSSIBLE CHALLENGE
RomanceFay lives her life like she always used to. Alone. Nobody to care for. Nobody to love. But then, she meets a stranger in her favorite bar, and suddenly, all she used to think of was in the past, turns into her now. Because this stranger, is her lost...
