I realise no one would miss me much at this party, I'm never a prior guest anyway, so I decide to leave. I tell johnson I'm not feeling too great and he tells me to text him tomorrow, I hug him goodbye. I can't find sammy or skate and I know that gilinskys fucking some random girl so I leave without another word.
the walk home seems longer than it ever has before and just my luck it starts raining. I walk as quickly as I can until I get home. I avoid my mum when I walk through the door and walk straight into my room. I get into an oversized t shirt, take my makeup off and get into bed. I plug in my earphones and turn the volume up to the highest. I start to fall asleep listening to wherever you are by five seconds of summer.
I wake up in the morning at six am and no matter how hard I try, I can't get back to sleep so I go downstairs and put on tv, there's nothing on so I choose the dvd bad neighbours, I mean zac efron and dave franco, yes please. once the movie has finished, I check the time on my phone and it's eight o'clock, I then get a text from jack gilinsky.
gilisgay🔥:
I'm coming round to yours in ten minutes xx
gaydence😈:
uh sure okay x
my mind starts to wonder on why he was coming round but I put the thoughts aside. I quickly go upstairs and put on some cotton shorts and some fuzzy socks, I then brush my hair and clean my teeth. I walk back downstairs and my mom is in the kitchen cooking breakfast. "morning hunny, would you like some bacon?" my mom asks me. "uh sure, save me some, jack g's coming round in a minute by the way." I tell her. she nods her head and gets back to cooking her bacon. the doorbell rings and I stand up and make my way to open it, butterflies fill my stomach. when I open the door, jack gilinksy is stood there in sweatpants and a large jumper with an adidas cap covering his curls.
"hey" I say awkwardly.
"i need to talk to you." jack blurts.
"okay, come inside then." I say as I lead him inside after shutting the door behind him. we sit down on the white couches next to eachother and I wait for him to speak.
"so, uhm, last night I guess I got a bit too drunk and ended up fucking some girl." he pauses and awkwardly scratches the back of his neck, I shift uncomfortably.
"um okay..." I say hinting him to carry on.
"but I mean that's not the point, I've done that with a lot of girls but recently it hasn't been feeling right, I mean, uhm, I haven't been enjoying it as much as I normally would so I-"
"so you came to me for sex advice?" I snap cutting him off.
"fuck let me finish kay!" I stay quiet and he continues, "so last night it really didn't feel right and I couldn't stop thinking about other things, so I told her I didn't want to go to have sex with her, we hadn't done anything more than kiss so I just walked out the room. I got downstairs and I was looking for you, but I couldn't find you anywhere, so I asked johnson where you were and he said you didn't feel well." he pauses. I look down and pic at my nails.
I know that's bullshit Kaydence. you left because you weren't comfortable and that's not really your environment, you forget how well I know you sometimes." he smiles and I smile back.
"I guess what i'm trying to say is that last night I realised that I wasn't happy and I tried to find you to make me happy. you make me happy. I know this is probably really confusing for you but I knew I felt something towards you, I just didn't know if it felt right because ive known you all my life, I fucked a few girls to try and sort my feelings out but my feelings for you haven't gone away." his eyes bore into mine and our faces are a few inches apart. my breathing gets heavier and the butterflies in my stomach have turned into birds, my heart his thumping so loud im pretty sure jack can hear it. I don't say anything and our faces are centimeteres away, I can feel his breath on my face and he starts to lean in, our lips are so close but I suddenly hear a voice that makes us both pull away. my mom walks in telling me my bacon is ready. she realises something was going on s walks out again. I look at jack and I blush, he laughs and puts his hand over mine.
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mixed signals || j.g
Fiksi Penggemar❝what are mixed signals?❞ ❝pretty much when a guy ...