We'll figure it out /Marauders Era

3. Night in the Hospital Wing

"Why did you do it, Remus?" Lily whispered sitting next to Remus' bed. She looked confused and lost in her thoughts, Remus was one of her best friends, maybe she might know about his suicides thoughts. Everything was wrong, Remus shouldn't be there, nobody shouldn't be there this night.

"Here he is," door opened and Professor McGonagall walked into the Hospital Wing. "Miss Evans found him in prefects bathroom. Good luck," she smiled sadly and closed the door.

"Evans, what's going on? What happened?" Sirius was the first who could speak. James and Dorcas just stood and stared on Remus' motionless body.

"I don't know, Sirius," she whispered desperately. She needed a hug or something warm, not cold touch of presence. "I think we were all blind."

"Don't you think..." Sirius run to Lily and he offered her his arms. "It can't be truth, something bad happened to him. He was okay this morning, he didn't want to go swimming but he never did, nothing special."

"I found him, Sirius," Lily was sticked to Sirius' body. "He looked like," she raised her head and looked into Sirius' eyes, "death body."

"Don't say this, Evans. He will be fine. He always is."

"Padfoot, I don't get it," said James. "It is the wrong part of month. He should be fine."

"So he wasn't, Potter!" yelled Lily at him. "Maybe you should care about your friends more."

"You say this, Evans?" James went mad. "You? He was your friend too and you saw nothing! Nothing! Maybe you should first sweep in front of your own doorstep."

"Enough!" Sirius ended this fight. "Both of you. Meadowes, go for Peter, he would be somewhere outside of our bedroom, James, Evans, stop fighting like kids in front of Remus, okay you two?"

"And what is she doing here?" James' calm was brittle, he could go mad again so easily.

"I don't know, James, and to be honest, I don't care. Vanity can be wherever she wants."

"No! Go away, Emma. This is nothing for your eyes," said James angrily.

"That's fine because I can't open them," Emma had one hand before head to know about danger and the other was waving around to defend attacks of others. "I won't see anything."

"I don't care, Emma, go away," James' behaviour didn't allow any objections. Sirius neither Lily couldn't see them because they were looking at Remus. "This place is not for you. We have problem here."

"We all have problems, Potter! You aren't the only person in the Earth, you know?"

James didn't care, he pushed out Emma and closed the door. Then he went to Remus' bed. "It will be fine, Moony."

"It will not, Potter! What can't you understand? Remus tried to kill himself!" Lily yelled at James again. "And it is all because of you are the worst friend ever, ever, ever!" she sounded like four years old kid. "Sirius, please, tell him that quidditch isn't everything."

"Sirius, please, tell her that school and subjects aren't everything."

"Sirius, please, tell him that stupidity is in dictionary explained like his picture."

"Sirius, please..."

"Enough!" he yelled again. "You are worst than kids, you are careless creatures lived on despair of others, like Dementors."

"Said by person who used McKinnon for sex things and then pushed her away," mumbled James but Lily heard him.

"You what?" she looked at them. "And you knew it? You are both horrible nightmares," she shook her head and looked on them with disappointment in eyes. "I believed that you are just stupid boys, kind and with good inside but maybe, I was the whole time wrong. There is nothing good in you two, trust me, I tried to find it. Tell me when Remus will wake up."