Maybe Destiny? : The struggling of the Loath

Andria

I am here again.
In my 9 year old body.
In this small room, peeking from the small hole on the door to the other side. Mom and dad are screaming at each other. Dad is beating mom as she cry.
"This is my money, My daughter's money. We need this to live. I will not give it to you for your stupid alcohol" Mom screams when father threw her on the floor.
"You bitch! You dare to say that! You and your stupid bitch has ruined my life! Now you want to keep the money too? You.." Father shouts and leaves the house. Probably to grab a rod.
Mother hastily stood up. She ran towards my room while limping. She burst open the door and holds my hand. She is covered with sweat and her eyes are filled with terror.
"Andria, My sweet daughter. We have to leave. We will no longer suffer. You will no longer suffer. I won't let you" She whispered, Her voice in a rush. She gave a soft kiss on my forehead.
We walked towards the front door when Father burst in. Mom stood infront of me, hiding me from him. Protecting me, from my father.
Before I could see what happened, Mother falls on the floor Screaming in pain. I run towards her face, Her nose was bleeding.
"Mom" My voice trembling.
Father grabbed my neck from behind and pulled me back. Thats when I notice the shovel in his hand. He smacked the shovel on mothers face as blood splattered on him and me. He smacks the shovel on mother's face, again and again and again. The blood keeps splattering on my face as I stood there watching how my mother's face is no more recognisable.
Suddenly everything went black. The only thing I can hear is my shivering breaths. I see a human figure walking to me. My heart is shrinking.
It was mom, I ran and hugged her crying. As soon as I looked at her face, It was covered with blood, disfigured. I couldn't see her eyes or her mouth or any features, just blood.
"Andria, My sweer daughter" The voice that sound like mother came from this disfigured face. Whispering to me as it trembles and engraves itself in my head.I scream.

My eyes flew open in terror. Where am I? I can feel my soft bed. I look arround and its my room. I am covered with sweat. My throat is drying. I can feel all the tears on my cheeks. My breaths are uneven and heavy. I look at my hand , The hand that hugged that human. My hands were trembling. Again.
I stood up and walked to my bathroom and looked at my face in the mirror. Even after seeing this nightmare every night for years, I can still see the fear, the terror in my eyes, the one that I felt when I was 9.
I washed my face with cold water hoping it calms me.
It did.
I went to kitchen after a shower. I can still not remember a single morning after that day when I was 9, when i woke up normally.
"Again?" Evangeline asked, knowing already what I'm thinking and what I saw in the dream.
I simply nodded.
"You know Andria, You can try the therapy again."
When we were living with Venenifer, I used to wake up screaming after this nightmare. Venenifer took me to a therapist. I took the therapy for a year. It didn't get any better, so I stopped going there.

Venenifer
Her name reminds me of the conversation we had yesterday. A mission to ambush Edward.

I sat on the chair infront of which a plate with pancakes was "You know its of no use. Its something I gotta live with" I don't really want to waste any money on it as well, I don't have a job now and Evangeline alone working cannot really provide us enough.

Evangeline sat on the chair across me and took a bite from her pancakes.
"You know Andria, I was thinking that we can-" the doorbell intrupted.
Evangeline went to check as I took the first bite of the breakfast infront of me. I can hear Evangeline talking to someone. Who is it?
"ANDRIA" Evangeline Screamed in excitement as she rushed in the kitchen and sat back on her chair.
"What?" I can see Evangeline's eyes sparkling and a big smile on her face with her cheeks almost red.
"I.Got.A.Date!" She said bitting her lower lip and still smiling.
"Bitch, what the fuck? Who?" Its been quite some time since she went on a date with someone. My eyes widened with shock and my smile as big as hers when I found out who he was.
"Its the guy from your Barista. You remember yesterday I asked like ' Customers are always?' and a cute guy completed the sentence for me? its him. He asked Marry for our address and he is taking me on a date within an hour" She laughs covering her mouth with her hands. She is blushing. I am happy for her.
"Bro, you only have 60 minutes" I reminded.
She cursed underneath her breath and did her breakfast in a rush. I saw her running upstairs and laughed.
I was done with my Breakfast after 15 minutes. I was scrolling through insta reels as I ate. I still sat there giggling bymyself watching reels until it was time for Evangeline's date.
I heard the doorbell and left my phone on the table. I know its probably that guy and Evangeline is probably still not ready.
Although he worked at my Barista and I know who he is but I never really paid any attention to him nor how he looked so I have no Idea how he looks. He was a new recruit as well. Curiosity is what made me open the door.
Damn.
The guy was tall, he had hazel eyes and long eyelashes. Sharp jawline and his hairs were like mostly every guy in k-drama. He was wearing a sky blue shirt unbuttoned and a white T-shirt underneath it. Simple blue jeans and white sneakers. His wrist had a black coloured watch that he was looking at when I opened the door.He was holding a Bouquet of flowers. His perfume's fragrance was mixed with flower's and it smelled fucking good.
He smiled with a bit disappointed when he saw me opening the door instead of Evangeline.
"Good afternoon" he said with his sweet yet sexy voice
I nodded
"I'm Noah. Nice to meet you. I worked at the Same Barista as you" He said
"Nice to meet you too, Noah. I am Andria. Evangeline's bestfriend. She told me about you. I'm sorry, she is still not ready"
"Oh, thats alright. I can wait." He smiled.
"I'M READY " Evangeline Screamed from upstairs, her voice so loud it felt like she was standing with us. She rushed downstairs and ran towards us.
"I'm ready " She repeated, this time in a normal voice as she huffed.
Noah, looked at her and smiled.
"You look beautiful " He said handing over the Bouquet of flowers to Evangeline.
"Thank you " She replied, still huffing.
Evangeline was wearing a white dress with lily flower imprinted on it. Her hair were curled and she decided not to tie them. The perfume she was wearing was the one she weared only on special occasions, it had a scent that noone can forget. She took a Deep breath and smiled.
"Shall we?" Noah asked and Evangeline nodded.
They both left after Evangeline waved me a bye.
I was still smiling when I went back to room. I have absolutely nothing to do. I looked at my book shelf, filled with romance novels that I've read. I was trying to search for a book that I might have forgotten the story of and I failed.
I threw myself on the bed as I looked around. Should I just go on a date by myself? wait, is that a thing?
My eyes fell on the Novel Evangeline bought.
"Maybe Destiny?" I whispered
I took the book and started to read it. I have anyways nothing to do.
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