take my side
only to poison
my mind
yet I'm trapped
I care for
you
so I wish
I was blind
or perhaps
dumb
not able to see in-between
the words you speak
and the words you mean
the secret truth
we dare not share
for you'd be shown
as a liar
and I'd be shown
as alone
one miss-step
and it shatters
why does it
matter
it holds
me by
my ankles
the blood
trickles
to my head
is this dreed
this is what I need
what I deemed necessary
yet it's empty
but so very heavily
it smashes me
into a box
that I've made
just to be another
play-thing
