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𝓦𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓦𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓨𝓸𝓾 ( 21 )

I pushed doctors with all my might to get closer to him.

No, this is impossible, Wake up Yim, I'm here, Please, I'm begging you, wake up; I was sobbing as I tried to wake him up.

P-please do something, Please I'm begging you, save him; I cried while begging the doctors here, No, I can't, I can't lose him.

P-please! I'm here awake please wake up Yimmmmmm...... I can't lose you, You can't leave me you've promise, Please wake up; I screamed because of the pain I felt, My heart was breaking while holding his cold body.

Nooooooooo... Please I'm begging all of you, Please save him, Please save him; My tears continue to flow at the same time as my heart breaks.

Kale, Please that's enough, He's gone; I shook Khim's hand and shook my head while my tears did not stop falling.

No khimy, I have seen and talked to him, This is possible, This is not true, Please save him; I looked at the doctors even though my tears were still unstoppable but they just took a deep breath.

I'm very sorry for your lose Mr. Chawarin but the patient's body already give up to all the medication we gave him; My mouth fell open and my world seemed to stop at what the nurse said.

Patient name: Yim Pharinyakorn Chawarin
25 years old, Male.

Time of death: 10:22 am

I heard someone crying around but I was deaf to what I heard, It was like my world stopped and the only thing I could feel was the non-stop flow of my tears.

I slowly turned to where his body was, I took a heavy step as I approached him, I felt the soul that was in my body was gone.

We will leave you first; I heard what the doctor said but I just continued to approach him, My tears didn't stop as my hand shook and touched his face.

You promised, You promised to go with me, didn't you, You promised you wouldn't leave me but why Yim, Why did you leave me alone, Please wake up, I'm here, I'm just here; I hugged his cold body. I couldn't stop the tears from coming out of my eyes, I was crying while hugging him.

I lost the person who was always there by my side, The person who always told me that everything will be fine no matter how messed up the world is, I'm left alone again, Why, Why am I always left alone.

My tears didn't stop as I remembered the happy days with him when we were still in California.

Kale, Do you really want to manage a business? I'm sure tita and tito will agree if you follow your dream.

How many times do I have to tell you that it's fine with me, Besides this is our family business and I'm the only son of the family do you think I'll just watch my parents working so hard while I'm having fun.

Its not like that, What I mean is you ca do whatever you want because I'm sure that what tita and tito wanted too.

You when you get rich, Even if it's just a house for me.

Lol I would like to laugh so loud, Hahahahaha Kale Chawarin asking me for a house, Don't forget that you are the son of the richest man in the world.

I recall when you said that you would never leave me, You told me more, like when the time you whispered in my ear, There was heaven in my heart
I remember when you said that you'd be here forever besides me, But you left without even saying that you're leaving, I was hurt and I pray that you would stay,  I was so afraid that this day would come, I wasn't prepared to face the truth that now I lost you because I have learned to live my life beside you, I want to stay dreaming were I could talk and laugh with you and I'll just keep on dreaming, Til my heartaches end, Til I accept that your now gone.

Those happy memories with you is one of the happiest day of my life, You became the first person who approach me when I transferred school, You didn't left me even on my darkest day,

For the long time I've been with you I know how you feel, You know I can't love you but you're still stayed by my side without asking for anything in return, I've always felt your love for me but I ignored it not because I can't love you but I don't want the day to come when our relationship is broken just because of love. That's what I regret now, I wish I told you then that it's not hard to love you back, You deserve all the happiest in this world, While I was with you, You did nothing but make me happy and ensure my safety until your last breath, I'm still the one you always think before you let my hands go, How can I repay everything now that you have left me too?

Kale, I already called mom and Tita thier on there way here; I heard khim says, I closed my eyes and hugged him very tight.

I used to think that love was not for me but that changed when I met him, I ignored his love because I knew I couldn't reciprocate it but he stayed by my side without asking for anything in return, He stayed to my side even though he knows that I love someone else, I know that I hurt him every time he sees me looking at Dale's picture but I didn't hear a single word from him, Khimmy why am I always left alone? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this, I didn't ask for anything else but his safety is that difficult request; I hold his hands while holding my chest because I felt my heart was so heavy and painful right now.

Everything that happened has its own reason Kale, I know that you are hurt right now but I hope you know that Yim was happy when you were with him; Khim said, I sat in the chair in front of him and closed my eyes while my tears still flowed without stopping.

I don't believe it anymore Khimmy, There is no reason for everything that happened, I already chose the right thing to do but why God punished me, If he's angry he should angry to me, It should be me Khim not Him, Yim didn't do anything but love and take care of me, If anyone should die it should be me, Khimmy, not him; I looked at Khim and I could see that she was also hurt.

Kale, Everything that happened was on God's plan, We are not in the place to question that; I shook my head and stood up from my seat.

Is it really true that there is a god Khimmy? If there is a god, Where was he when the people on that plane need him, If there is a god, Why didn't he hear my prayers, If there is a god, Why did he let all this happen, Why Khimmy, Why did he let it everything happen? Why; I couldn't stop screaming, My vision was blurry because of the tears blocking my eyes, If there is a god, Where was he when we needed his help, If there is a god, didn't he hear my prayers, I didn't asked anything from him but Yim safety. I know I don't have a rights to question him but Why, It should be me, He should took my life instead.