Meant to be?!

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Chloe's point of view

I wake up alone in a bed confused about where I am and trying to remember what happened the night before. I remember that we went out to dinner together and then we went to Brody's restaurant that had been turned into a club for the night. Since Beca told Sophie what her actual job is she was no longer hiding her skills any more and was back to sharing her music and playing gigs again. I could tell Sophie wasn't the biggest supporter of it all, which just makes me mad because I know how much music means to Beca. Without having someone to share your passion with is a lonely place to be in and I wish that Beca would come around faster and realize that I do still love her and want to be with her. It's hard but I'm still trying not to be selfish with my feelings because she is still with my sister after all but I can tell that the things Sophie is doing is starting to get on her nerves. I now understand why she kept her music from Sophie because all she does is complain or say it's too loud.

Last night was a good release and being able to see Beca performing again was a real treat for me. I've always loved seeing her in her element and she looks so at ease while performing. Unfortunately Sophie had to go and put a downer on the night by deciding it would be a good idea to bring up the fact I didn't want to bring someone to the wedding again and throw it in my face that it's my fault I'm single. So I threw it back at her and told her at least I don't throw myself at anyone who gives me an ounce of attention and am able to hold on to a relationship longer than two weeks. Stacie pulled me away from Sophie and brought me to the bar where I just drank any and everything that was placed in front of me. I remember dancing a lot with the girls and staying away from Sophie for the rest of the night, but I lost count of my drinks and just kept dancing and drinking. I have no idea how I got home or much of the rest of the night but I couldn't be bothered. All I knew is I was in a comfortable bed and fell asleep almost immediately.

I'm brought out of daze when I sit up quickly and realize I'm in Beca's apartment. More importantly, I'm in Beca's bed. I look around the room and smile to myself remembering the last time I was here and then immediately getting sad because it was the day before I walked away from Beca and out of her life. To this day I still regret the decision I made, I mean she gave me multiple different solutions that I could've tried but I was too stubborn to listen to any of them. I lay back down because I have a serious headache from all the drinking last night. I cuddle back into the sheets and try to go back to sleep for a bit or at least ground myself until my headache goes away. That feeling of going back to sleep is abruptly stopped when I hear the door creak open and feel the bed dip down. I open my eyes and see a fluffy dog coming closer to my face.

Beca's point of view

We are getting closer to the wedding and after telling Sophie what my actual job was I decided to get back to doing gigs and playing my music. It's frustrating that she doesn't support my work and at the end of the day it kinda pisses me off because I want to be able to share it with her and get her opinion but I can't do that. It's making me rethink the engagement as a whole and about the potential of breaking my engagement and going back to Chloe. Throughout this month we have been getting closer again and it almost feels like old times but I'm still keeping my guard up and remembering I am engaged to her sister.

I've thought more about what Kara told me about picking the person that lets me be myself and be truly happy and supportive of me. Each time my mind goes to Chloe but then I think Sophie does do some things that I like and make us happy. But then I come back to the reminder she isn't Chloe, and why did I get with Sophie in the first place and I think back to when we first started dating and it comes down to the reality that she reminded me of Chloe physically so subconsciously I was hoping she would be like Chloe. Unfortunately for me that was not the case, but it seems I learned that a little too late because I am now engaged.