the me book [maja, that's me]

wednesday, may 27:th

fucking fucks!

fuck off

fucking hell

I hate when my stepmom rants on me!! I have a horrible day including:

• missing my boyfriend

•being sad

•too much to study

•my grades on the latest tests and exams are so low

•i'm a failure

•i fucking fail everything and i wish i had a friend who i can talk to rn. not just through text but someone who's here.

i told her and she said something like "okay, let's have a calm afternoon" and i was like finally!! but the she just kept on nagging at me about me not doing my laundry...i did yesterday... i told her and she got SO pissed because i 'didn't behave', and i was 'so fucking brittle' and i 'really chastised her'.

great to hear :))) wait the story will be better! :DDDD

she kept on babbling about me doing the wrong thing ALL THE TIME (and i don't exaggerate) and then i was like "FINE" and got tore up and she didn't care. do you know what she said!? she said "it's so hard for me to get up in the morning, my days are horrible with you and when you behave like this it's even worse!!"

the hell? what did i do?

i tried not to show anything to her, just stood there and accept me being a nightmare to her.

my mind is weird rn. what should i do?

die maybe