Honesty

11.

Noah's POV:

We were sitting in the living room in the Q. The Q was a building, every floor for each group. Each group had 4 people in it. My group was my friends. Dain, Damien, and Jake. Jake slept at Jules' house because we wanted to make sure she was safe. 

I wonder what they're doing right now.

"Hey." I hear Damien's voice as he comes from the kitchen. 

I immediately rolled my eyes and looked at him. "What?" 

"Can we talk?" He sat in his usual spot, across from me. I looked outside, instead of a wall we had these huge windows looking at the city. I'm so glad we got one of the highest floors.

"Noah." He sighed. "Please. It's about Jules." The second he said her name, rage came running through me. I wanted to yell at him so hard right now.

"Not here." I looked over at Dain who was eating cereal in the kitchen. 

Dain was the only one who didn't have a thing for Jules, but he was still her best friend. He used to say she was hot and he would always support her so we teased him. In the end, we all just realized he was gay and on the same day, he came out so we all laughed about the whole situation. 

I stood up and walked over to Dain. "Hey, man." That got his attention. "We're going out. Lock the door if you'll be leaving before we come back. K?" He nods since his face is full of cereal. "Bye." Damien waves and we walk out. 

We don't talk until we get into the garage walking towards our car. 

"Can we talk now?" Damien says as we get into the car. I don't answer, just turn on the engine and put my seatbelt on. 

I hear him sigh. "What do you want me to say?" I ask him.

"Just hear me out." I start driving, making my way across town. I don't even know where I'm going.

We sit in silence. "Talk." He looks at me and gives me a short nod.

"You heard the fight last night. She's still mad. And I know you are too. I understand why. I shouldn't have left her there alone. I shouldn't have left her period." He kept talking. "I ditched her. I was drunk and scared of what she meant to me so I left. I regret it deeply and if I could go back I would change what happened that night. I understand that the worst part is, I never told anyone who I left for. And it was on her birthday."

I nodded. "You're right."

"I am?"

"Yeah, you fucked up. You broke almost every rule. Rules that were partially your idea." I made a turn, at this point driving to her house. "I hate you. She is trying not to. She wants to forgive you but you hurt her. You hurt her bad."

"I know." He was looking at his lap. I've never seen him so disappointed.

"You don't." I shook my head. "When you came to us, asking about what would happen if you got with Jules, it hurt. We all knew she would get hurt, but it was her choice, and Jake and I trusted her. But mostly, we trusted you. We trusted you to not hurt her. We trusted you to not get drunk with her. We trusted you so much, man. You lost that trust the second you decided to leave that night. That's the worst part. You didn't just hurt her, break her heart, you betrayed Jake and me too." I parked in front of the house, seeing Jake's bike there too.

He was staring at me. We were like brothers and saying that he betrayed us, made him realize just how much damage he really did. 

"I-" He didn't know what to say. "All I can say is that I am really fucking sorry. And that I regret it so much. I changed and I will never hurt her again."

"No, you won't." My voice was rageful, I couldn't keep it in anymore. "You won't hurt her ever again. Because you won't go near her, not in that way anyway. You won't touch her like you used to, you won't look at her like you used to, and most of all you won't tell her any of this. You're right, you hurt her and you made me angry. So make your peace with her and leave her alone."

"What about the rules?" He understood what I was saying. "Are you guys still going to follow them?"

He caught me off guard. Are we? "I'm going to try, but Jake's control is running out and he loves her so much, it hurts him. I can live with being best friends with her. honestly, I like it best like that." 

I see Lily walking up to the house and as she sees the car she waves. I open the car door and shut it with a little extra force. 

"Noah!" She giggles and runs to hug me.

"I saw you yesterday, princess." Ok, a quick note. Do I have a thing for Lily? Yes, yes I do. Does it override my thing for Jules? At this point, fuck to the yes. I love Jules, but Lily makes my heart skip a beat.

She blushes at the nickname and we start walking to the front door. 

Jules POV:

We kissed. Well I kissed him and he kissed me back, but all in all we kissed. And now his back is against the headboard and I am sitting on him, my legs on each side of him. And his face is on my neck and my hands in his hair.

ding dong

Fuck.

We both froze, his face coming up and my arms falling to his shoulders.

We stared at each other and it's like we had a mind convo.

who is that?

i don't know

well, you're the older one here

just go to your room, ill open the door and call you downstairs if it's the guys

ok

I nodded and quickly made my way to my room. The second I got there, I went into the bathroom and brushed my hair.

I hear Jake open the door and some laughing. It's the guys, thank god.

I run downstairs and Noah gives me one of his bear hugs.

"So, what were you guys doing just now?" Noah asks, with Lily in his arms.

Ok, maybe you were right, but she's def bi

bitch I'm bi, fuck off

ok well, dick take the fact I admitted I was wrong

piss off

"Oh, we just ate breakfast." I pointed at Jake. "This guy slept through his alarm so that's why we ate so late."

"Alright, can we come in?" Lily said. Aww, she was blushing. I ship them so hard.

"No you cant, you will stay out there for the next 3 hours while I fuck the shit out of Jules." Jake says, and of course everyone laughs because everybody knows how sarcastic Jake can be and that it's his whole thing. 

Everyone walks in and Noah makes a small statement. "You're hilarious." But Damien glares at him like he's about the beat him up just for saying that. I look at Jake and blush when I see that he looks at me at the same time. A small smirk makes it's way onto his face but I immediately feel Damien behind me. 

His cold hands make their way onto my hips and he turns me around. He lowers his face and we're inches apart. He brings his head so that his lips are right next to my ear. "I swear to go, if he even touches you, I will tear his world apart into a million pieces." I feel myself turning on just by him saying that. "I know you won't forgive me anytime soon, but know," he brings his head so that he looks me in the eye. 

"You're mine."

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