Flori x calin 😨😨😨😍😍

Realizing

Flori pov:

I was in my bed, tucked into my blanket, scrolling on Instagram.
 I stare at Eva's posts with disgust on my face. I like it so she won't come for my neck the next day. She calls it "boyfriend material" even tho we are not even together? Anyways. 

I open mara's story. Just a bunch of photos with the sluts in our class.
Then i come across an older photo of our "gang". I look at everyone in the photo, half asleep, not sure for who or what i was looking for.
Eva's TikTok pops up. I drop the phone on my forehead because of the jumpscare. This girl only gets uglier each day.

I go back to mara's story and keep my finger on the screen this time. Then i see him. His soft smile and sparkly eyes. I gently rub my finger over him. Something about him drews me in.

I love calin like a brother. But what if i do more?... No. There is no way. Im straight, he's straight.
But... I rejected the whole female population in our school bc i don't like any. I've always told myself that one day I'll find the one. But what if i did? What if Calin is the one?
God, Cosi is gonna kill me if he finds out i like him...

I keep staring at his picture. I quickly open my gallery and scroll until i find a pic of him. He was wearing a purple hoodie and his hair was messy. I bring my phone closer to my face.

I quickly close the photo and text my friend alex.
"alex alex alex, can you help me out"
"wtf stefan it's 4 am"
"ik but.. do you think I'm gay?"
"man what did you smoke? did cosi give you his vape again? are you delusional?
"no, I'm being fr."
"umm..."
"come on"
"idk. what's going on"
"I think i have a crush on a boy"
"pfftt lmfaoo"
"..."
"wait ur being fr?"
I don't reply. I stare at our texts for a couple of seconds.
"lmfao ofc not. it was a prank I'm bored and cant sleep. me? liking a boy? be fr.."
"yeah right. says you who rides calin every recess"
I slightly blush.
"anyways gn, I'll try to sleep"
"gn ig"
I close my phone and throw it on the nightstand. I close my eyes. I cant get calin out of my mind. I keep thinking about his voice and smile. All i wanna do is have him next to me and cuddle with him, kiss him and hold his hand. I want him to hold me when i cry and play with my hair. I want to lie on the rooftop with him and stargaze. I love him so much it hurts. And it hurts even harder to know that he doesn't. How could I've been so blind? I never saw how much he meant to me and how much i loved him. 

Too bad he will never feel the way I do...