Flori x calin 😨😨😨😍😍

Feelings

Calin pov:

Flori was acting so weird yesterday and today when he arrived 30 mins late at school he looked like he cried the whole night.
Eva jumped at him and wrapped his arms around him. 
-Stefann!~ I missed you lots.  Why do you look so sad? Your gf is here!!
Flori just looked at her with disgust and shoved her onto the floor. He sat next to me, looking so done with everyone.
-Hi calin.. he smiled at me.
-Oh hey. Are you feeling fine? Lately, you seem fairly odd..
-Yes don't worry! Im doing just fine. Just kinda stressed with school yk..
-We literally have the next weeks free from any assignments and test wdym
-Um. Nothing anyways
I shrug and turn around.
Alex came to flori and asked him something about last night and.. him being gay?

Wait. Flori? Is gay??..
I kept quiet the whole day. After school, i rushed home and threw my backpack on the ground. I grabbed my diary (don't judge me pls) from under my pillow and started flipping the pages until an older diary entry.

"Dear diary,

I've been thinking for the last few days. Maybe... Maybe I like boys. Maybe im gay. But if i come out all my friends will turn their backs on me. 
But im not just gay.
Im gay for flori.
Yk, my best friend? We ride each other in the break times at school and the girls yell side eye while we do that.
I just love him sm. His fluffy wavy hair  I want to play with. I want to wear one of his hoodies or shirts while we hug in bed. I want to kiss him goodnight. I want to bury my head in his chest. I want to hold his hand and not care what others think.
I know he isn't gay. I know he won't ever love me. This just feels like some kdrama on budget. I just have to understand that no matter what, he won't like me. I mean he is homophobic so..

Anyways, gn, it's getting sad and i don't want to cry. Again."

I stare at the pages. Oh god.

Is flori gay? Or was alex just messing with him?

I take my phone from my pocket and text stefan. My heart is racing. 

"Hey can i ask you smtg?"
"uh yeah sure, go on"
"why did alex say you were gay? I mean there is no way you are gay obv. Unless.."
"umm.."
I wait a couple of seconds for flori to reply.
"ofc im not haha. me gay? just imagine..."
"yeah lmao, my bad. I misheard and got um scared"
"oh, dw, I'm straighter than uhh"
"..."
"Im straight okay. And i will always be. You don't have to worry sm. I'll never like boys that's just disgusting. Imagine liking one lmfao. I mean how could you, ur straight as well"
".."
"Right?"
"Yeah yeah.. Straight.. Anyways my brother's calling for me gtg"

*Third person pov:*

He closed his phone shut before he managed to reply. Tears invaded his eyes.

He collapsed onto his bed, burying his face in his hands as he tried to process what had just happened.
At that moment, he wished he could turn back time and erase the text message he had sent. He wished he could unburden himself from the weight of his own emotions and pretend that everything was okay.
But deep down, he knew that he couldn't. He knew that his feelings were real and that he couldn't keep denying them.

In the silence of his room, the boy sat on his bed, clutching his phone tightly in his hands. Tears streamed down his face, as he replayed the conversation over and over again in his head. He couldn't believe what he had just heard.

He had been foolish to think that someone like him could be loved. He had nobody.