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𝗸𝗮𝗿𝗺𝗮 | ୨ৎ

━━━ 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝘄 𝗱𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗮𝗺𝗮𝘇𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝘁𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗮𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁, you couldnt ask for anything better. you had spent the last few days at jungkook's house, in the day time you were both eating together and sharing laughs and by the night you both were laying in bed, naked and tangled up under his blankets.

you were currently on the couch, watching some random show that jungkook was really into. your head was rested on his shoulder and you were holding his hand, but your mind was someplace else.

the words your dad said rang through your mind. you didnt have much time left and the thought of that made you depressed. what would you do without jungkook? how would you tell him?

you thought about why you were here in the first place: to make him fall in love with you and break his heart, but you couldnt do that now. not after everything you had with the boy. you grew to care for the boy and love him more than you did yourself.

as the days went by you started to despise yourself, questioning who the real monster was. was everything a mistake? should you of just continued to ignore him so he could soon forget about you and you could move in with the next job? did you dig your grave deeper when you kissed him that night?

you didnt notice the tears that fell from your
e/c but jungkook surely did. he quickly paused the tv and shook you a bit, looking at you with worry in his eyes. you found him worrying for you a lot, you loved how much he cared for you.

"baby? whats wrong? why are you crying? do you not like the show? i can change it if you want..." he wrapped his arms around you and the gesture made you cry even more. you didnt want to lose him. you needed him in your life. you didnt know it at first but you were longing for him.

you shook your head and wiped away your salty tears, "its nothing....i'm okay. dont let me distract you from your show..."

he frowned and held you tighter. "fuck this show, i care about your well being way more than the stupid show. tell me whats wrong please, i dont like it when you're sad."

those few words that he let out made everything even worse. you had just wished that he would shut up, that he would just stop being so caring and leave you behind. you didnt deserve him, you knew you didnt.

you let out a sigh, knowing that no matter how much you rejected, he would still want to know what was bothering you. "its just my dad...."

that wasnt completely a lie, you were thinking about your dad at some point. his frowned deepened and he pulled away, to stare into your e/c eyes. "youre still thinking about that? baby i told you his words mean nothing! he doesnt see how amazing you are."

you gave him a sad smile but it didnt mean anything, you felt depressed, extremely depressed. you sat up, feeling as though you couldnt be around him right now, not wanting to burden him with the way you were feeling.

"i have to go jungkook, but i'll see you later." you kissed his cheek and left the house.

a day had passed and you finally got yourself together a bit. you sat on your couch and scrolled through your phone, getting a text from jungkook.

jungkook: hey baby, wanna come over?

you smiled at the message, the nickname always made your heart flutter. you knew that it was probably a bad idea to go visit him while you were in such a bad state, but you missed the man so badly. so you grabbed your shoes and made your way to his house.

when you knocked on the door, you were met with the impact of jungkook's lips, catching you off gaurd. he grabbed you by your hand and dragged you into the house, closing the door with his foot.

he pulled away with a shy smile. "sorry.....i just missed you so much." you let out a laugh and stroked his cheek. "wow really? i couldnt tell....." he giggled and brought you to the couch, sitting you down before making his way over to the bedroom.

you looked in his direction in curiosity and waited for him patiently. he soon came back, his hands behind his back. "i got you something...." his shy smile soon returned as he made his way back over to the couch.

"really? what is it?" you asked curiously. jungkook sat down beside you and handed you a black box. you smiled at him and opened the box, being met with a beautiful ring.

you gasped, and placed a hand on your heart, wanting to cry from the nice gesture. "oh my god jungkook! its so beautiful...."

he chuckled and grabbed the box from you, removing the ring from its little slot. "yeah dont love it too much.....its nothing compared to the real thing."

those words set a deep wave of sadness to wash over you. the real thing? jungkook wanted to marry you?

the thought of it made you happy and sad at the same time. marrying jungkook would be a dream but it wasnt possible.

you mustered up a smile and let him put the beautiful ring on your finger. you examined it with love in your eyes. it was truly beautiful.

"i love you so much y/n. you dont even know." he held your hands, staring deep into your eyes. "i love you too jungkook." you held onto his face and smashed your lips onto his. you let him grab you and show you how much he really loved you.

𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧.