𝗸𝗮𝗿𝗺𝗮 ━━ 𝗃𝖾𝗈𝗇 𝗃𝗎𝗇𝗀𝗄𝗈𝗈𝗄

𝗸𝗮𝗿𝗺𝗮 | ୨ৎ

━━━ 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱, until you were down on your last week. you didnt know how to feel. you were sad of course- depressed even. but you were scared, really really scared. you didnt know how jungkook would react to this whole situation.

you wanted to just give up, to just give in and continue to love jungkook without crushing him, but you were afraid of what might happen to you. you didnt want to imagine what would happen to you but you really didnt want to imagine what would happen to jungkook.

you made sure to spend the last few days with jungkook and tried your best to give him the time of his life. during the last few days you and jungkook visited theme parks, expensive resturants and made love everynight.

you knew you would miss the way jungkook held you, the way he held your hand when you were afraid to go on the rollercoaster, the way he spoke up to you when the waiter got your order wrong. you would miss jungkook's love. the way he played with your hair when you were worried about something. the way he let you cry into your shoulder when you were sad. the way he reassured you when you were feeling down. the way his words affected you physically and mentally.

before, you didnt care about love, honestly it was just a human thing to you. but after meeting jungkook, you didnt know how much you strove for love, you didnt know how much you were needing it. you didnt realize there was a piece of you missing until you met jungkook. he was the missing puzzle piece, and once you found it, you were finally complete but now its over.

you knew you had no choice, you had to break the fragile boy's heart and probably traumatize him forever. you didnt want to think of it that way but it was the truth. you would probably scar him forever and he'll probably never be able to trust a woman again.

you knew you were just as bad as anyone else in his family, leaving him like his mom did and breaking his trust like his father. he let himself be vulnerable with you, showing you the side no one in the world was allowed to see but you.

you wiped your tears and shook your head, wanting to just get everything over with so you could just suffer in peace. you rested your head on your pillow, turning off your light and falling into a deep sleep.

you woke up pretty late with the worst heartache ever. as you sat up, you could feel the squeezing of your heart, as if someone plunged their bare hands into your chest and ripped out your still beating heart, squeezing it until there was nothing left but a puddle of mush.

you wiped your tired red eyes, wanting to just get everything done already. you knew you wouldnt be able to forgive yourself after this, who would? as you were about to sit up from your bed, you got a message from jungkook.

jungkook: hey baby, are you still asleep? idk if you are since its 10pm but i really wanted to see you today

you let out a sigh and got up from bed, you wanted to see jungkook today. you put on a shirt and a pair of pants and grabbed your shoes. you closed the door behind you and made your way to the boy's house.

you were greeted with a warm hug from jungkook but you were too weak to return the gesture so you stood in the doorway with your arms on either sides of your body. jungkook took quick notice to that and pulled away, examining your face to see if he had made you uncomfortable. you were definitely going to miss the way he made sure you were safe whenever he was around.

"sorry....i just missed you so much." he said shyly. you gave him a weak smile and turned around, making your way over to the couch. jungkook followed after you, sitting down beside you.

this all seemed too familiar to you, like the day jungkook basically proposed to you. you looked down at your hands and played with your fingernails, not knowing what to say to the boy. jungkook was just as confused as you, staring at you. the more he looked at you the more your heart ached for him.

"y/n? whats wrong? are you okay?" jungkook looked at you with worry in his eyes.

you couldnt hold back anymore, the feeling was too strong. no matter how much you attempted to hold back, the feeling was eating you inside.

you grabbed both sides of his face and smashed your lips onto his, surprising him at the sudden action but he didnt once pull away, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you closer. your heart beat out of your chest, wanting to just jump out of your body and reconnect with jungkook's.

it was you who pulled away this time, your hands still on his face. "jungkook...." you started, not quite sure how to word your next sentence. no matter what you said or how you said it, it would have the same effect.

"no matter what happens to us, i'll always love you, okay?"

jungkook gave you a questioning look, not knowing at all what to say to that. were you breaking up with him even though you guys werent really together? were you leaving him again?

"y/n youre scaring me." jungkook didnt know how to feel. he knew you were confusing but this was just impossible to understand. where was this all coming from? why was this all happening so suddenly? this was the last thing he thought would happen considering the past few days you both had spent together.

you opened your mouth to speak, but your eye shifted over to the item that fell from his pocket.

𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙨𝙪𝙣𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙢𝙖𝙘𝙝.